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because i don't want my ex (hopefully soon to be bf) to think im crazy or unstable. maybe not the best reason in the world, but a bad reason is better than no reason.

why can't you be more expressive? i'm insecure and i need to hear that you love me.

S and E- last night i put the newspapers there hoping that you would pick them up and ask why i had so many of the same issue. i wanted so desperately to tell you i had written the editorial so that you could read it and i wouldn't feel so alone and misunderstood. i put them right in front of your f...

i like to run. when i si it makes it can be really painful to workout afterward. when i don't run i get really depressed and am more likely to binge and si. i decided to not do it so that i can keep running and stay (more or less) happy.

if you talk to someone, find out their own ideas on that sort of thing before you go in to talk to them. a good therapist wouldn't tell your parents anything you don't want them told, unless you are a threat to yourself (su threat, not just si) or someone else.

i wish people would look beyond my front, and see the real person underneath.

i wish i were smarter.

i wish i were happier.

(1) my t told me that i should not hesitate call if i wanted to hurt myself, and i believe her. i don't want to not call, and then have to tell her that i did something next session. i also desperately don't want to call and bother her. for some reason i especially care that she not feel that i coul...

i am... thoughtful creative fun i am not... the bad things that have happened to me shallow always silly i feel... sad tired lonely i want... to feel loved to be appreciated for who i am to be happy i need... understanding compassion i have... molly a good t i love... my family my wonderful doggies...

mom- i love you so much, but sometimes i feel so hurt by the way you relate to me. please tell me you love me too, it would mean so much to me. dad- i love you too, but i wish i saw more of you. i know i'm away at school, but i still feel your absence. brother- i think you're cool. i really do. it's...