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Thanks, W. I did end up harming but have not had urges since then, which sure makes a difference. I've been stuffing some pretty intense feelings since last night and am waiting for the sh*t to hit the fan for me. I want to let myself get emotional before my emotions take over me. I have a T appt to...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. *they're burns, so not a lot to be done for now. what had happened just before? *Runaway thoughts about abuse and my abusers, and the pain that comes with that what were you thinking and feeling? *Thinking I should dist...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? *I'll feel some control, won't feel so anxious, but also will feel defeated and sad what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? *Will bring more scars, a sense of control. Will take away at le...

I hope I can love myself someday. I like, even love, some things about myself but do not love myself.

I am in respite and have promised myself I would never hurt myself in respite since I come here to get help and, well, respite. It wouldn't be fair to the people I'm staying with to hurt myself while I'm here. And it could jeopardize my chance of getting into respite again.

I'm embarrassed by my scars and won't go out of the house without long sleeves any more. And yet I continue to make more...hmmmmmmm....... I just bought a new lightweight white long-sleeve blouse to wear during the summer. Sometimes in the summer when I'm going to the store I just drape the tops ove...

Because my friend is here and I've promised my friends I won't harm if they're here

Michelle

I'm crying for something I can't have...

Michelle

restless
anxious
lonely for my boyfriend
a bit sad/low


Michelle

I made it through shopping without dissociating very much at all or overspending. (For the record, I love shopping, just find it hard lately...)

Anxious and only half-way here

Michelle

Good coffee
Internet
Having a boyfriend
Daffodils

Michelle

I called my boys (ages 13 & 15). I try to call them every weekend but have been very isolative lately and that's gotten in the way of my calls to my guys.

Because I know it would make my boyfriend sad, and I don't want that.

I went to visit my aunt and Grammy and I also washed about half of my dishes.

Michelle

hopeless
desperate
lost
scared

depressed, scared, mostly hopeless

Because I didn't want to disappoint my boyfriend. I'm trying not to cut so he doesn't have to see fresh wounds or more scars than I already have.

The answers to these questions are different for everyone, for sure. I do hope you have someone irl to talk to about this stuff and work it out with. If not, I hope you'll try to find someone (counselor or whomever). Keep writing if it helps and take care of yourself in the ways that help you most. ...

Hi, Josh. Welcome to BUS. Have a welcome cow: :moo: I'm sorry you're feeling low these days. Depression can be so difficult to deal with! Sometimes I really hate, hate, hate it. Maybe you'd like to talk to us about the issues that are making you depressed. Whatever you decide, this is a place of gre...