bus

but wait?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

there's's moooor

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die.
death.
suicide.


dont look at me.

i am not a roll model.

fucked
up
m
.

across this land i have bled
alone
you stood with me
alone
we were two
alone
together
alone
both
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i am still here, waiting...



alone....

as i sit alone again
me with my pride
you know the one
the one that died inside

you can smell
this corpse
of love gone lost
drinking days
and sharp wit

my new found old friend

you turn red i turn blue
together we make one tenth of a rainbow we will never see

so it is
...............

as always

%^

..

curly i am here your hair as tangled web of cobbs old and older i become duller is my choice of seperation stinging drooling life that comes from me sweeet red kisses to ease my pain smooch smooch smooch the lipstick stains my natural clothing i hate who i am and i hate what i have become the word i...

it is so simple what is all fo this c%%ting n stuff youd think we lost out minds sad sad dad no longer here grandma your gone too mother take your time please, i need you just a drink and a thought of our time in these boots and i learned we are all just men no longer here no longer live no longer h...

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i did

sometimes i dont even know why i come to this site?? i guess it is good for people (it has helped me from time to time) today hmmm today this day g i need help.. i can type all i want but it will not change what or how i feel im still here (no threats here) i am a loooooser!!!! how do i not be one??...

oh so tiny is my wound
oily red

my skin

,my mind,

who am i

why why "why"

is his to releive me
or shut me up?

these are the peices that keep me together.

one by

one...

(another day)?

here i am.... i never liked this forum "before and after" i think i have said that before.. i hate me i hate my life i was once married to a beautiful wife i fucked it up by being me now alone when once was we since this time i dated a few maybe 10 different girls and now a jew this one i love so ve...

this is before and it is after.. i sold all my stuff and moved 3000 miles away no job no more money i have not talked to my daughter and my girlfriend is giving me hell my bills are getting bigger i have been looking for a job for a month and a half and have only had 5 count them 5 fucking interview...

i did it now
and i feel so fine
i did it now
these cuts are mine
i'll regret these when i wake
but now i drown in my own red lake




sorrow is not my middle name
it's only the thought that follows me....

sad to bad to good

mixed

up and down

sometimes at the same time

worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless ...

let me rub the keys for a sec......



what to write what to write////

.....

bout what?