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I can hide so well its so hard for me to cry IRL it hurts so bad...I cried a lil bit but not enough...........I want to scream and shout and CRY so bad but i cant. They cant know i'm hurting...................... Its so hard to cry and not to cry and to just be

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? -it wont but I will get the release that I need. I wont hurt so much. the only thing that will change is I will have more scars that I hate. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? -it wil...

I am so tired of crying but thats all I seem to be doing lately. Cry and Hide. Hide and Cry. Cry and Hide. When will this all stop? When will I stop hurting.

I want to cry but I've cried so much this past week. I am so tired of crying and I am tired of hurting so much. Nothing is going right and it doesnt seem like its going to be getting any better. Just more worse.[/img][/list][/code]

the main reason I didnt the last time I wanted to which was recently ie today was because of the kids being home and I dont want to have to explain to someone why there are new marks.......I'm ashamed of the ones I left over a year ago.....