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when I was little I was cruel to animals ( a friend's cat). nobody IRL knows this. NOBODY. sometimes people make me so mad I really want to kill them but I act like I'm just joking. I'm scared if I get psychotic again what I might do. I think I might be masochistic. :o Every time I think a girl loo...

people at the hospital - WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT THROUGH YOUR PEA-SIZED BRAINS THAT I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO PAY THAT $11,000 BILL FOR BEING INPATIENT WHEN MY INSURANCE RAN OUT? I am NOT rich I am a college student who does NOT have a job ATM and who does NOT have any money!! I can't pay your bill! St...

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1. my therapist
2. my pdoc/psychiatrist
3. my Bible and all the books I've ever owned
4. my dog Molly
5. BUS

1) If you could paint the room you're in now to match how you're feeling or to what's going on in your life, what would it look like? Since I'm feeling frustrated and angry and sad and . . . triggered, I'd paint my room with dark blue and black vertical stripes, with diagonal red streaks. It would ...

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? How do I feel right now? I feel scared and hurt and a little bi...

Thanks for the suggestion, Mallie! I'll do that!

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Long time no counter.

Is there an ETA on when we get our counters back?

wow this is such a cool thread I never saw it before. My therapist: I don't know why I have to cut, I just do. It's a PROBLEM, it can't always be organized to fit into neat little boxes. I can't always identify a motive, it's just *there* sometimes. Rusty: You're my brother, sometimes I wish you'd g...

*SI trigs* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll feel guilty and like a failure. It will be even harder to get a job as I'll have marks on my arms in June in Texas - too hot for long sleeves by thirty degrees. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it t...

I can't get mine to work . . . I posted the link in my Profile and I had to click on the link to see my counter . . . I want one like every one else . . . . . <whines>.

I had an appointment with my therapist in three hours and I didn't want to tell her I SIed.

Wow Mab... :o thank you for sharing your story. I hope you are doing better now at least a little, from the time of your post. That is so profound. I have never really considered ODing as an option, as I had to watch a video in High School of a girl having her stomach pumped. It was not pretty, and ...