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When I began cutting, it was for attention. But that hasn't been since the first draw of blood. I'm so ashamed of that. Now my cutting is for me. Just for me. I live in a bubble. Not the real world. And I hate it. I'm jealous of my boyfriend's ex who's now dead. I kind of want to be bulimic. But I c...

1. My boyfriend
2. My katana
3. CD player/CDs
4. Shell (rowing boat)
5. Collection of books

*cries*

c- im so much of your problems and i apologize for it. i didnt mean to neglect you for months on end while you did everything in your power to make me happy. im sorry that i never took you seriously and that i was only after your ass. im sorry that you have to feel emotions while i shrug them off li...

you idiot. you dont pour gas on a burnpile and then lean down to light it with a match unless you have a death wish. calm it down with deisel or just BURN IT PROPERLY

im sorry im giving everyone such a time. i dont mean to. i guess i just want to know that people are there

Chris, i'm sorry that i couldn't be happy-bouncy all the time for you. i'm sorry that i have problems

i wish i didn't have to go away for two months. i need alex so much right now...

Laurie and Gordon: FUCK YALL!!!! I swear to God, if I get sent away for one fucking scratch... Robin F: I'm so sorry I never called you back. I meant to...I swear I did, but there was no answer or it was too late Alex: I'm sorry I'm such an emotional mess right now. You don't deserve to have it all ...

I got Seasons 1 & 2 for Family Guy...that's good

everyone is acting so distant and i feel so alone. why isnt anyone there i need someone to talk with, my boyfriend is starting to be a little like my ex (who i now hate with a fiery passion-- he dumped me because i was depressed and cut) and i dont know what to do I want to SI so badly just bleed ou...

Alex- You deserve better and I'm sorry that you're stuck with me
Maria and Kelsey- I'm sorry that my actions hurt you so much. I would stop for y'all if I only could...

The rest of the world: I am so sorry...sorry that you must deal with me

I wish I could cry right now...
Hooray for cyber-crying!

Sometimes I do that. Like, when I feel really down I will dress in black and grey, I'll put on mascara, dark eyeshadow, eyeliner, make my face really pale and my lips a dark grey or black. Just looking like a mess and looking terrible makes me feel better

i wish i was stronger
i wish i couldnt feel
i wish i was better to my friends
i wish that no one would betray me
i wish i didnt have to cut
i wish i was skinnier

:redstar: Name: lets go with Noah :redstar: Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Yes :redstar: If so what is your motivation: Alex :redstar: Favorite coping skills: Writing poems :redstar: Coping skills that work the least: Snapping a rubber band :redstar: Safe places you can go: Outside a...

Chris: i'm so sorry that i hurt you. i threw away something really precious

Robin: you can come live here for as long as you need. don't worry- he wont bother you

Alex: i love you

i am...
a crewbie
compassionate

i am not...
alright
preppy

i feel...
pained
fat

i want...
to be loved
chocolate

i need...
a haircut
to excersize today

i have...
two Phantom movies
toe shoes

i love...
Alex
Ms. Funderburk

i hate...
myself
being alone

Back scratches
Cough drops
Pointe shoes
New book
Girls Night Out Sleepovers
Phone calls from Alex
Applesauce and Cheese-Its

Alex: You have been such an incredible help to me. I love you so so so much, you mean everything to me, and I will never willingly leave you. It'll take a shitload of aliens to take me away Maria and Kelsey: Yall are my best friends. Ever. Thank you for being so supportive. Meredith: I love you, but...