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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Perhaps the even stronger urges will go away. The urge for someone else to do it, in a sort of erotic and amazing way. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring a lot of awkwa...

Wanting and lustful. Oh dear God she need but ask....

I pierced my navel. And I like it.

I know you have a boyfriend now, but that doesn't mean that I don't want you. I don't want to date you or be in a relationship, but I want you. He said it was okay without any prompting. So apparently I'm safe. Please. Kiss my brains out. And one more thing. I am SO jealous of you that I can barely ...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I might feel less. I'm feeling so many things that I cant deal. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will ease it up a bit. But... I suppose then I will feel badly that I couldn't de...

I hate hearing you talk so horribly about me behind my back. I don't care if you think that I'm full of shit but don't try to poison the only friends I have against me.

Now its over. Why do I have the feeling that it was the last time someone will like me in awhile?

*CRY*

Lexapro works very well for me except that it makes it so that I cannot orgasm at all. Whopee...

I started to really like her.

alone
unloved
pained
cold/stoic

It was me who left that flowery branch in your mailbox. And it is me who will put a bouquet of flowers that I'll pick in your mailbox tomorrow

I put a flower in her mailbox without getting caught

What the FUCK?? How hard is it for you to make plans and be punctual about telling me! You're leaving town soon and you SAY you want to see me but then why are you putting it off? MAKE UP YOUR MIND!! You treated me horribly for awhile and I think it's time we put all of it behind us and move on. Are...

She'll just hurt you again. I, on the other hand, care.

After that, I just tried to ignore it, took some deep breaths and started trying to occupy myself best as I could.

I did once...not fun. At all. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling high. Literally. Everyhting was fuzzy and spinning and I had to pee like a mother. I went back to bed and sort of drifted off to sleep in a stoned sort of way. The next morning I felt like my stomach was going to explode. The...

A: Make plans, dammit. Hurry the hell up.

C: ....I like you.

This is kind of a weird suggestion but it helped me go from feeling like crap to feeling superior. Read some Nietzsche. Friedrich Nietzsche is a german philosopher and a lot of his stuff is rather interesting and he is probably the most self-absorbed human that lived. But some of it rubbed off on me...

How will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will relieve some of the anxiety I'm feeling right now. What will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I'm not sure what it would bring to the situation, but it might take away the edge and th...