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After all of your help yesterday, I realized that I missed you. But I'll never tell you that.

peaked.
nostalgic
flummoxed

My parents know because the guidance counselor told them behind my back. She was technically obliged but I was still pissed. They did not like it one bit and became very overprotective and paranoid. It wasn't a good experience.

Erm...she's kind of ugly and stupid...feeling a little shafted. Least you could have done was call like you promised. I remember exactly: "This was a lot of fun and not just cause of that. We should do this again sometime. I'm fuckin serious. I'll definately call you later this week." I'm stunned th...

*sniffle sniffle*

Thank you for the ride out to my car when it was pouring rain today. It was amazing just to see you.

Slightly loved. And slightly alone. Weird, huh?

I hope that this year won't be the death of me. Curse senior year.
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I hope that someday I can be honest with her.
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I hope that someone will ask me to the dance. But I don't think that will happen.

I managed to be social today.

I want to see you, but I think that you'll get sick of me and annoyed with me. I want to just cry on your shoulder and earn your comfort, but I am afraid that it will only be an inconvenience. I want to tell you how miserable I'm feeling at the moment, but I can't stop myself from saying, "I'm fine."

Alone and inconsequential.

I'm not as emotionless as I lead people to believe. I'm not as strong as I show. I don't really think that everyone in the world is self-serving and will hurt me. I have my exception. I just won't let you know.

I'm sorry that I sort of blew you off this morning. When you saw me and said "Good morning", I wanted to run over and hug you, I really did. Instead, I just gave an emotionless "good morning" and shoved my nose back in my book again. I'm so sorry if it disconcerted you. I'm just scared that I'm arou...

I realize how much she means to me and it scares me. I'm afraid that I cannot keep a hold of my sanity without her. (I love you Robin)

I was so close to shutting myself out of the world. I almost succeeded in telling myself that everyone has and will hurt me in some way and I'm safer just trusting in myself. You killed it. You refused all of these things. I trust you and you have never hurt me. I feel totally and completely safe wi...

I'm so glad that you are in my life. When I go off to college, I don't know how I'm going to survive without your hugs. I think I might go insane. I love you more than anything else in this world. You are the one adult that I look up to and my God, you are wonderful. I stood beside you today while y...

M: You are such a whore. I can't believe that you did that with M's boyfriend! Plus...its not like you have an impressive rack to show off anyways. Now you mutate L. She doesn't deserve that shit. Just because she denied you doesn't mean that you should try tooth and nail to turn her from her boyfri...

Lyrics would help me:

He said that he would stay forever.
Forever wasn't very long.
Cause when he lied it meant he loved me
And when he lied it meant he cared
And when it lied it meant he loved me
Cause when he lied it meant that he was there.

After numerous posts on this thread, I realize how much I haven't said. Today is no exception. Robin: I can't tell you how much you have meant to me. I don't say that flippantly. You have been there when I needed you, however scared I was to admit it. I wish I could ask you for help more than I do b...