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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll feel less anxious and back in control what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? Christ I don't know...I can't think straight... how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurt...

Pretentious bitch. Do you even know what it means to be a SIer? No! You do it for the attention and we all know it! You think your parents would tell the counselor to fuck off if she told them what their precious baby was doing? HAH You attention-seeking whores! What the hell do you think you are pl...

i am... in existence

i am not... dependant on others

i feel... broken

i want... comforting

i need... to stop shaking

i have... a dilemma

i love... robin, my puppies, sorbet

i hate... the fact that I'm not always strong enough

I'm worried that I won't have the courage to do what I know would help
I'm worried that if I end up doing it, it won't actually help anyways

Do you hear the small cracking sound? That is me.

You could offer your right arm when he goes to take it? I try to do that (my left arm is verry scarry).

Anxious
Stressed
Strained
Exhausted

You sing beautifully, more so than anyone I've heard. Are you an angel?

......will you be my angel?

Somebody hold me too close Somebody hurt me too deep Somebody sit in my chair And ruin my sleep And make me aware of being alive Somebody need me too much Somebody know me too well Somebody pull me up short And put me through hell And give me support for being alive - being alive Make me alive, make...

I have gotten my first large tastes of exacting revenge this week and I loved it. Two people's situations will be screwed with because they screwed up mine. I feel like God. This isn't a good sign.

I feel empowered
Yet paranoid.

Okay, I have done EVERYTHING in this damn college process. EVERYTHING. All the things you told me were inaccurate and poorly researched. Dont blame ME cause I can't reach a deadline that doesnt exist! Dont expect me to THANK your fat ass cause you did nothing! Oh, and my mother is going to go have a...

Whenever I tell you "I'm fine", I'm lying to you. I don't mean to do that. If I had my choice, I'd tell you how terrible I was doing and how I feel like I'm going to crack and return to my SI given a couple weeks. But that damnable phrase comes out instead. It's not cause I don't trust you...I do mo...

I feel a longing and strangely poetic about the whole thing.
I feel like she'd forget about me if I didn't remind her with my presence and phone calls.

I didn't want to disappoint her. I don't want to see the look on her face when she finds out that I'm breaking like china

I feel like my sanity is slowly swirling down the drain. And it scares me

Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye. Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye. Don't try to stop me Horace, please... Wave your little hand and whisper So long dearie You ain't gonna see me anymore And when you discover that your life is dreary Don't you come a knockin' at my door 'Cause I'll be all dolled up And singin' th...

J: My god you are the biggest bitch I have ever had the terrible luck to encounter. Must you constantly slander people? Must you TRY YOUR HARDEST TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT?!?!?!?! Shut the fuck up. No one cares how much you fucking hate [insert name here]. It's about time someone stood up to you and...

I'm worried that my shell will crack.
I'm worried that she will forget about me.

It doesn't work for me when the problem is incessant.