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You keep telling me to "get over" whatever hangups I have about stuff. I'm trying, I really am. But, you're effectively telling a girl with MDD to have a whole hell of a lot of confidence in herself and her abilities. Enough confidence to believe herself able to edit a professor's paper. Enough conf...

If she'd only been faded, If she'd only been fat, If she'd only been jaded And bursting with chat, If she'd only been perfectly awful It would have been wonderful. If...if... If she'd been all a-twitter Or elusively cold, If she'd only been bitter, Or better, looked passably old, If she'd been cove...

She won't love me that way, either.

AAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Both please and apprehensive.

I wish I could easily get out of this mess.
I wish for more bonding time.
I wish that at least one of my honours thesis ideas works.
I wish things could be easier more consistently.

In 5 years, I hope to be in a prestigious PhD program for literature, living in my own place, recovered from SA, maybe in a relationship but maybe not...

Just happy.

T: Thank you for talking to me like an equal sometimes. "Confiding," in a manner of speaking. It makes me feel wonderful. Thank you so much.

M&L: Thanks for the babysitting/dogsitting jobs. It has really helped my mood. Makes me feel useful.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I've thought about ending our relationship. I think it's because once I have someone, really have them, I no longer want them. I have you. I'm wondering if I still want you. It's a horrible tendency that I should fix, really.

I ran into your person yesterday, and he said that you'd be really excited to see me again. So, contact me, eh? Don't disappear after... that.

I had the most vivid dream of you that I've ever had last night. I beg for it again tomorrow.

You broke me. Is it a break that will heal stronger? Like re-breaking a toe to reset it and get it straight again. Is that what you did? Do you even KNOW what you have done to me?

Despondent.

And now I would really love to see you again. Talk again. But you are leaving so soon.

I never would have guessed. You have a very interesting personality, less brooding than mine. I never would have known. You, too? You find your faith in embracing the suffering of others. You found mine, and you embraced me. I want to cry for you, and I want to cry for me. I want to cry with you. I'...

Thank you. I know it's harder for you to do this sort of thing, but I cant tell you how much I do need it.

Thank you. I'm glad I mean something to you, especially that much of something.

I know I said that I didn't need a well thought reply, but a reply in general would be nice.

Another one attacks: Keettepevelak

Spammer in mine, too. fumeoutfirm.