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I don't know what I'm doing.

GOD DAMMIT YOU BASTARD LET ME KNOW EARLY!!!!

I am not staying beyond one semester unless you do something pretty fucking awesome to keep me

I reminded you last night. You know this is a big deal. So why haven't you said anything about it today?

I wish I could join this group because we DO blame the poor buggers for everything, but those poor buggers also give me the allergic reaction from hell, so I don't feel that bad about them getting blamed for something

MUA HA HA

.....ha ... ha *done*

This shit is not what I signed up for. This is not how crew is supposed to be.

I hope you die. I do not want you involved in any aspect of my life anymore and while I love the people I love, I cannot get away from you and I hate it so much. The ONLY reason I could still want you alive is because they care about you and because that annoying part of me cares about you. I wish t...

Excellent. Thank you

I recently created a new email address that will be a lot more convenient for me and I want to change the email listed on BUS to this new one. However. This new one contains my name in it. I'm just wondering if anyone can see my email address on the board? I clicked 'email' to see what it would say ...

I wish I could send the above letter to you. I just don't think you'd really want to hear from me all that much.

Dear A, I don't think I ever thanked you. Perhaps I have, but I don't think I ever thanked you and truly meant it. You saved me from myself when no one else could even come close. I abused your kindness and devotion and for that I bear my share of the blame for how it ended. I only wish I could have...

I wish that I could close my eyes and have it be later. I want to skip to dinnertime. And then home for Christmas. And then her wedding. And then our pasta night. And then our dinner date. And then the important regattas. And then Spring Break. And then summertime. And then my party. And then ... Yo...

You are there for barely a month and you're probably already fucking some skank. I hate you so much because I can't stop caring about you. I want to erase you from my brain. I do not want you in my life anymore. I hope that you die except that it would hurt two people I care about. I hope she breaks...

infuriated
crushed
betrayed
suicidal
homicidal
useless
unimportant
unwanted

FUUUUCCCKKKKK!!!!! WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY?!?!?!? ILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH! NOT EVEN TO BE YOUR FRIEND! I HOPE YOU DIE SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU ANYMORE OR I HOPE I DIE SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU ANYMORE!

IHATETHISIHATETHISIHATETHISIHATETHIS

I hope you have fun fucking that skank. I hope she breaks your heart and uses you. I hope you die so I don't have to deal with you fucking up my brain anymore.
I honestly
truly
deeply
hope that you die.

Because if you continue tormenting me like this, I am going to go insane.

I'm worried that my anal-ness about my eating habits and exercise habits is morphing into some sort of twisted eating disorder.

A month ago, I could have ruined the living shit out of your life and hurt you in a way that nobody else could. I don't think I can anymore because half of it would be lies now.

I cannot fully appreciate such a wonderful guy because part of me will always love and want his brother. I DO appreciate him, don't get me wrong. I just don't think that I do as much as he deserves. Even if I told him, I bet he would keep me anyway. More proof that I do not deserve him. Why do I hav...

I wish that part of my life was simpler.