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I want to be with you some this summer. But I also don't really want to deal with it-- sex worries me. I'm so insecure about it, so much more than the last time we were together in that capacity. Insanely so.

I'm worried that I'm about to fail this sociology exam. Which is highly likely.

I'm worried my parents will shoot me for failing it even though I've been warning them that while I've been studying, I'm expecting a train wreck.

Sociology is so fucking stupid. Just saying.

I feel like a failure- no friends, no sex life, about to fail an exam, annoyed with a stomach pooch that appeared. I am going to go to bed. I'll read until I can't read anymore and then cry until I fall asleep. I'll dream something great or not dream at all and when I wake up, the world will be alri...

Like a failure. A total failure as a woman, as a friend, as a student, etc.

I said this a bunch but it still feels like I didn't say it enough. I love you, Grandmommy. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. I miss you. I can't believe you're dead. I'm crying as I type. I'd give anything just to be able to see you and hug you again. I dreamed of you last night: you ...

I hope I don't blow this. I feel like I'm about to fuck it up so badly. I both want to seem interested and yet not too interested. I don't know if I want to make something of this or if it's just a big, bad idea. Please let this be fun. Let it be enjoyable and amazing. Let me have a month (just a mo...

Like jet lag is going to kick me in the ass any minute now.

Fat. Fat fat fat fat fat. Whopee.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Undesirable
Fat
Incontinent

Otherwise just annoyed. It'll pass. At least the latter two.

If I were M, you'd be shitting yourself trying to get tomorrow night to work. But I'm me. So, you couldn't really care less no matter what you tell me. If you cared, you'd have at least let me know. I wish that you would like me as much as you like M. OH COME ON! M is a poxy whore. .... ok fine a ve...

You're forgetting. Or refusing to remember. I wish I could forget you. I wish you could just miraculously not matter to me anymore. I'll make up my mind and decide to not care anymore because it's useless anyway. And then you will flirt. Just a little, but enough to draw me in all over again, just i...

Don't forget. Do not.

dont forget

I think that I'll always be hung up on you. Always want you. Sometimes, so bad it will hurt. I don't think I'll ever not love you. Sure, I'll love others, not think about you for awhile, get infatuated with other people, and such. But I'm sure that I'll always have a spot in my heart that will want ...

Doesn't anyone remember me? Does anyone ever miss me or want to hang out with me? Does anyone even think of me from time to time with some measure of fondness?

No, of course not. For the past three years, never. Why should things change now?

I wish I could have done things differently. Then maybe I could still have love again. I could still have you again. Sometimes I wonder if you feel the same way about me-- wish that it could have worked out at the time. Wish that we could have the opportunity to make it work again. But I could never...

Why is it that she'll hook up with everyone but me? What is so bad about me? No one wants to touch me. Lots of people will tell me how pretty I am and how lucky someone would be to have me but if that is the case, then why am I so alone? Why will no one so much as make a pass at me?

Its BULLSHIT

Why will you hook up with everyone but me?

Ecstatic. IM GOING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!

I really wish you wouldn't get off the phone so fast. I miss you.