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I would do ANYTHING.

I miss you.

What the hell. Did you even realise what you where saying?? Way to fuck it up. I was sure you'd gather me up into a hug, a good one... something. And you. Please for gods sakes. And to my group today. All of you suck balls. Athena's helm was the most important iconographic symbol she possessed. Her ...

Are you just entirely grossed out? Say something. (Recognise that phrasing of that email was the closest thing I can come to saying I NEED HELP)

It's not that I don't want to call you or don't need anything from you.

It's that calling to ask for a hug just sounds stupid.

I wish you could see how much I need someone. How much I wish that someone could be you. I understand that you have a wonderful life without my being in it, but it would mean so much to me. Why you? You are the type of person I hope to grow into, when it is all finished. I admire you greatly and re...

Thank you for coming. I cannot describe how much it helped me. I love you.

(Turn around) every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round (Turn around) every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears (Turn around) every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by (Turn aroun...

Thank you.

I am worried. I'll tear apart the country if I have to.

Also, thank you for your beautiful smile today. It brightened my disposition.

Frightened
Paranoid
Worried

Are you? Do I mean Anything to you?

I'm frightened now.

I saw you and became immediately afraid my heart might explode. I felt it everywhere, thudding and pounding and cracking my sternum.

Please.

I want to see you so badly. When I saw your car outside the building, I knew it wasn't you but I passed by anyway, just in case. I'm not sure why it matters to me so much (that's not true-- YOU matter to me) but it would mean so much if I could see you. Have a chat. Have a meal.

Please tell me it was not you. That's all I ask. You promised me "your best discretion". Did you exercise it? Did the panicked tears of a lying woman undo you and things you promised to keep silent spill from your lips? I must believe it was not you. I must believe it was them for they are forever b...

I feel anxious. Watching a scary movie.
Feel scared. Not from the movie but for my life's path.
Feel lonely. Very very lonely.

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YOU JACKASS

I.... bought a skirt for my testing.