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So this is an after. My brother’s brought some people home and I absentmindedly left my liquor downstairs in the fridge. They don’t know I’ve been sneaking it in since I moved back home 6mo ago. I feel horrible and now they both know about it. Injury wise... There’s nothing really to take care of. T...

I want to SI real bad tonight. I want to get drunk enough to not talk myself out of it. I can’t seem to ever bring myself to make good choices. Nothing really good ever seems to happen to me. Let me rephrase that. Nothing I want ever happens. I’m feeling a little at the end of my rope. How will this...

I’m disappointed in myself. No one can help me or wants to. Nothing ever gets better. SI will bring more things to be disappointed about. It will take away the progress I’ve made. Well I doubt SI will snap me out of this. I’ve been getting urges a lot more lately. I’ve done really well for a while n...

a few years later i got a different dream where i was living in this huge castle and it was midnight so i wasnt meant to be out of bed but i needed a drink, so i got up and went down all these flights of stairs to get a drink of water, on my way back up to bed there was this creature it was like a ...

• I’ve got this big blob of ugh! in my life. If anything happens to make it bigger I’ll be fucked up beyond repair. I need someone to know that something is wrong. I need someone to listen without judgment. I need someone to hold me, rub my arms and say you need to stop doing that, not because I’m t...

really shitty
Birthdays suck

Like I want to cry
like I need someone to call
frustrated
alone
fed up

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thanks plantt for being there

we were supposed to see a movie last night but I got some bad news and was kinda upset. He never called or anything so I didn't call him either and just stayed in. I've been goin off lately how I've never had a group of friends and I want to be more sociable but it seems, this week especially, I'm w...

The situation won’t change. I just want to… I don’t know. The relief won’t last and then I’ll have to deal with more scars and more questions. I’ve been fighting urges since yesterday but if I give in now after not having them for a while they might come back quicker next time. I could call a friend...

So God damn alone

Happy cause it's been a great day but frustrated cause I can't concentrate on anything and I've got work to do

i said no because i ussually cut where a short sleeved shirt would cover. i don't cut very much on my lower arms and if i do its only one cut and its only very occasionally so ppl usually ignore it. I do that too but scars on my lower arms are adding up now. I do think it's necessary to hide new on...

Why are you scared? Let me know if you need anything

It doesn't matter to what degree you SI, if you seek refuge here YOU BELONG HERE. Everyone's advice and support is welcome and valued whether they SIed last year or this morning. Hard times are not easily forgoten and the lessons stay with you forever.

No one has the right to make you uncomfortable. Try telling her it bothers you. She might ever need to put it away for her own sake. Is it something she might get grief for having?

I'm sorry you had a fight with your boyfriend. I'm here if you need me
**HUGS**

Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. I just added that to my sig. I love that saying. A man I very much admire beats that into everyone he meets. He is a smart guy. If you ever have a chance to meet Bobby Petrocelli by chance take advantage of it. The chances are probably slim but who knows.

I know I was pretty vague in my first post. I’ll give some details now if it helps. Ye be warned... SI, possible triggers. * * * * * * * * * * A month ago I broke up with my boyfriend of about a year. He was the biggest support I’ve ever had and now there’s a void. I guess I’ve been trying to fill t...