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Let me say up front that I have already decided not to SI. I've been feeling really down and urgy lately and using this to hopefully help myself relieve some stress. I've been SI free for 5 years and I don't plan on changing that now. With that said, feel free to read/comment if you like. how will t...

I'm scared he'll love his baby more than me.
I want him to love our children more than his, even though I know he shouldn't.

awesome responses guys, and what rapidity! i'm very impressed. you both had great points that i'll try to incorporate into the rest of the questions i have left to answer, and i'll hit more of what you guys said at the end if the questions didn't cover them. here goes.... were there outside factors ...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yeah i'm good, this happened last night and i cleaned up right after. what had happened just before? ummmm....it's hard to remember what immediately came before it. my memory's kind of blurry about this, like it usuall...

i like my legs now! i've been working out a lot and lifting weights and my legs are getting more defined, gaining muscle and losing fat. yay! i work out with a good friend and we always compliment each other, so that's also helping boost my body love. working out is really helping-it helps me feel b...

thanks for the replies everyone! To me, this sounds that although you got through the situation, you didn't really deal with it. Does that make sense? yes, it makes sense and i know it's true. i'm just not sure how to deal with things! i write in my journal, i talk to my friends, i go work out, i di...

Seether - The Gift Hold me now I need to feel relief Like I never wanted anything I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to I'm so ashamed of defeat And I'm out of reason to believe in me I'm out of trying to get by I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm...

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? it's been 8 months since i last SI'ed. i tried so hard not to SI that i replaced it w/food w/out realizing it. when i figured out what i'd done i tried to get my eating habits back under control. i think this has contributed to...

inadequate

wanting to cut just for the hell of it
wishing i had a reason to
fucking stupid for the 2 things above

i'm not sure what to say, i'm sorry you're having such a hard time. break ups really hurt. but i know you have the strength to make it thru. just take it slow. maybe call a friend to talk about it? you don't have to talk about cutting (unless you want to), just about the breakup and all that. that's...

tired. very tired. and not confident. (unconfident? confidence deprived?....)

hmmmm...been having body image problems lately so this is tough for me, i'll start out small.... i like my feet. i think my toes are very pretty, and i like it that i always have them painted. and my feet have nice arches. 8) that's as far as i can go right now. good post tho! maybe i can come back ...

-N- I'm not sure how to say this without being selfish, but i guess it doesn't matter b/c the reality is i really am, so i'll just say it. you're never there for me. you're so busy with your sports, your classes, and your frat that there's no room for me. at all. and tonight i really need you. i nee...

urgy
hypocritical
weak
ugly
snappy
and more urgy

i'm bored too! here at college and all my friends are gone for the weekend, and feeling kinda blah. i'm lonesome. this is what i get for being in a long distance relationship with a boyfriend who's too busy for his own good.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Could you leave your house (or wherever you are) and get away from the book? I know when I read stuff that disturbs me, a change of scenery is sometimes helpful. If you can't leave (or just don't want to), just try to make it through it. I know there's really nothi...

i never feel justified about being mad at people. they never deserve it, i'm always the one who fucks it up. nothing is their fault, it's always mine. just when i think i'm right, and i can be really mad, i'm proved wrong. it really is all on me.

you've given me things to think about, thank you silent scream. it really helps to have other people read over my thoughts and help me sort through them. Recovering is an action: it isn't something that just happens to you. It is painful and it is a process: it is hard work. You can struggle, of cou...

why do you refuse to help me. i don't understand...i feel like you should be the number one person there for me. but you're not. i know it scares you. but it scares me more. and i feel so alone.