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have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes what had happened just before? I had said goodbye to Ben, and walked up to the Library what were you thinking and feeling? I was feeling anxious and unstable why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some ...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will not feel anxious anymore, I will put off having an anxiety attack. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? Hurting myself will bring relief & calm to this situation. But it might ma...

I spose you have a couple of options - to stop si for the next month (difficult option i know) - to tell your sister where your at & be honest with her (fairly good option if u ask me, like limestone suggested, she could offer you support etc) - keep si-ing and not tell your sister/cover up (definet...

Essentially, I'm stopping for the good of me.

But I hate seeing that look on my bf's face, the questions about scabs & scars, the fact that my parents know.

I'm getting close to forty days. Forty is a biblical number for a generation (meaning a long time) so I'm kinda exstatic (sp?) about this!!!

Usually I check out but if i feel urgey, but if i'm really urgey i steer clear cuz i get engrossed in triggering posts which i know is bad but i just can't help myself, anyhoo, if i'm really bad i just go to bed, hug the pillow and sob for a while, or hug my stuffed dog. I used to write in a diary t...

i am... sad alone scared of the future i am not... feeling loved hungry interested i feel... unloved tired hurt not good enough i want... to cut my bf to cuddle me to sleep i need... to be heard a hug i have... everything material i require a phone i love... my ben chocolate honey on toast coffee i ...

B-STOP BEING SUCH AN INCONSIDERATE BASTARD. YOU'RE ONLY CONCERNED WITH YOUR OWN FUCKING FEELINGS. SHOW ME SOME FUCKING AFFECTION!!!!!! SHOW ME THAT YOU LOVE ME WITH THE OCCASIONAL SMILE. You hurt me everyday.

I played the Sims 2. It's incredibly addictive and helps me escape from my own problems eg: @least my stove isn't on fire
I played it for a full 3 hours

I was at school @ lunchtime & instead of going to the toliets & SI i went & found people to talk to & be around & who cheer me up like my good friend MJ, god she is a darl

thanxs heaps for that awsome list. i can find a fair few things there that'll help me. especially the foodcolouring one, what a great idea. you're my saviour! usually when i'm frustrated, anxious or going to SI, i throw stuff & as a result the walls of my room have a couple of dints, well maybe more...

I didn't do it cuz i had a good cry, posted a message here and then went to sleep hugging my stuffed dog harvey. i also stopped myself cuz i don't want fresh scars at my formal.