bus

i want you to hold me until everything goes away. please don't let me let go of this... ...i'm so scared of making my mom's same mistakes in love that i'm already making them. i'm scared i'll fuck it up, and now i'm fighting myself to not run away. I. Love. You. and forever isn't long enough.

i want to stay here. in oklahoma. i want to live with friends, and share rent, and live pay check to pay check, and fight tooth and nail to make it. i want to be poor and happy if thats what it takes. i want to be on my own. with noone but god and my heart to guide me. and yes a major reason is dani...

*just sits in corner and cries*

((pms okay)) * the day after we broke up i ripped to shreds that picture of us. when we first fell in love. you had a poem on the back telling me that everything would be okay, that if i doubted to look at the picture and know you loved me. i love you beyond anything else. but i hurt so bad that rip...

Changes -- 3 Doors Down I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel) I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me n...

scared.

i cant stop crying.

i want to si so bad...

in 5 years i'll be almost 23: * I'll have graduated college. * I'll be looking into (or already acquired) an apprenticeship for tattooing. * I'll be married to the love of my life, D. * I'll finally have a stable mind. (even if my life is crazy. but a good crazy) * Me and D will be talking about hav...

So in LOVE. that it leaves me absolutely breathless.

LOVED. just as much in return

BEAUTIFUL.

i never thought i'd have that last one.


i'm almost completely happy.

i believe god brought us together. too many people have told us that to not believe that.


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i doubt we'll make it to the 3 year mark before we both say screw it and go ahead and get married. but i'm okay with that.

:star: knowing that what me and D feel is never going to falter. :star: being told im beautiful :star: wanting to say he's beautiful but can't cause he's a guy. so i say he's handsome instead. :tongue: :star: lying with the love of my life as rain falls on us. oh yeah..tell me that wasn't tooth deca...

sore because of concert
sore because of daniel lmao

happier than ever because of above.

in love.

finally content and secure.

(for the most part anyway)


mhmm.

D: i never say this because i'm scared you'll think i'm clingy even though you know i'm not. Never Leave Me. please...never ever leave me. i know i keep telling myself that this is your last chance, that you mess it up this time and i'm not doing it again. but i'm lying. i don't think i could ever t...

sick

nothing wrong with that :wink: i'll post in your place when i'm done here. forgive me if its a tad odd...i'm like that. lol --- i wish i wasn't so unbelievably terrified that me and D's relationship will fall apart again, there's nothing that could trigger that now, but i'm still so scared that it'l...

so freaking exhuasted.

either puke or pass out. (i gave blood in 100+ degree weather brilliant let me tell ya)

happy.

so very very much in love.

extremely urgy.

like i'm going to cry

worthless

like someone there's no point in loving.




just a little lost....

i hinted to my best friend that i've been urgy. and then asked him if he'd go with me to buy markers, so that i'd have them to scribble on myself when it gets bad. its the best coping method i've found for me so far. i actually asked for help with it. :) i'm also proud of myself for taking control o...

Lips of an Angel -- Hinder Honey why are you calling me so late It's kinda hard to talk right now Honey why are you crying is everything okay I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud Well, my girls in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to he...

terrified

D: i love you. i don't know why we can't say it...when we believe it so much. ------- everyone: i'm so scared. i want to leave, to finally live my life. but i'm so scared...because i'm not used to caring for myself, and in my heart...i know i'm not fully ready to think of myself. :cry: help me someo...