bus

I cleaned my room and managed to eat without feeling like a cow.

Guilty
Stupid
Weak
Worthless

I've been going through a very similar thing. Around this time last year I used to have extremely disturbing dreams that terrified me from sleeping for up to 136 hours before my body would just crash :roll: I did some psychodrama with my T and it helped stop. But recently I've been having nightmares...

I wish you were here to hug me and make me feel safe. I need you.

My T and I actually got into a discussion about this once. I was SA'ed, but I had only been seeing him a few months, it was my first T and I had never disclosed it before but he kept asking me about it. He asked me three seperate times if I was SA'ed and finally I was just like, "Why the hell do you...

Like a whore
Needy
Stupid
Lonely
Abandoned
Frustrated
Scared
Depressed

I feel so empty and alone ...just tired and frustrated. Why can't this be easy?

Empty.

Angry
Manipulated
Scared

I used to do that too; to a very obsessive degree. I wouldn't let *ANYONE* see me cry, ever. Instead when I felt like crying I'd get violent and angry just to cover up the hurt. My T started to push my buttons a lot in therapy and finally after a hard session when I was fighting back tears he was li...

Weak, tired, drained....guilty. Scared. Anxious.

My T noticed my difficulty in communicating the first time I met him, and from the get-go he had me keep a journal. I used that to express what I needed help with a lot. It was easier when I was alone and could organize my thoughts or just vent and rant and let him know what's going on in my head si...

Personally, I agree with Jamie. I've had issues with my scars since I first started to SI but I've come to terms with them and accepted them as part of me...as reminders of where I was and how far I've come. Plus, even my keloids have faded with time. I had a friend that got scar surgery once...made...

*PMs fine*




I'm pregnant. I don't know who the father is...

I'm getting an abortion and I'm not going to tell anyone Every one I know, including my best friend, thinks I'm still a virgin.

These are a few off the "Feel Good Music" playlist on my iPod :D Abba - Dancing Queen Black Eyed Peas - Let's Get Retarded Frente - Open up Your Heart Save Ferris & Reel Big Fish - She has a girlfriend now Skye Sweetnam - Billy S Vapors - Turning Japanese The Boo Radleys - Wake up Boo The Kinks - Pi...

I thought you would be the one person I could depend on and call and talk to when things got bad. I thought you would always be willing to give me support when it was convinient. I wasn't expecting THAT much. I know you have a very busy life so I don't mind if you have to call me back later or const...

I'm on the opposite side of the ED spectrum as well, but to manage hunger I drink lots of water (flavored water most of the time for taste) and tea. Cherry cough drops help too...they're really yummy and sweet [edited- thatway].

Worried
Used
Angry
Hurt

This is *such* an awesome idea! I'm definately going to give it a try. If I find anything, I'll be sure to post it for you

I wish my mother would go away.
I wish I was in control
I wish I wasn't scared
I wish I could sleep at night
I wish Leo was alive
I wish I was never born.