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i am... confused strong talented/creative i am not... a whore worthless ugly stupid I feel... anxious tired restless betrayed violated I want... to be left alone to be in control to forgot I need... space sleep a shower i have... a lot of people who care about me i love... my pets my friends i hate....

I wear my bathrobe around the house a lot or just drape a hoody over my arm. Also, I got a bunch of long-sleeve lightweight men's pajama tops that I wear.

I've definately felt like that. Actually, the first time I showed my T my arm, he was definately trying to hold back his reaction, but I could tell he was shocked, and I got validation out of that. If he told me that he'd seen worse I think I'd feel really triggered too.

Bunny rabbits
Long hot baths
Bright colors
New shoes
Blowing bubbles
Waterfalls
Duckies
Hugs

S: I fucking hate you. You manipulated and used me but you don't even care. You don't give a damn about me. You have no idea what kind of hell you put me through and years later I still can't forget. M: Stop being such a bitch. Seriously. The whole world revolves around you and you can't stand anyon...

I agree with everyone else's suggestions...when I first began therapy and I was trying to stop, every time I got urges to cut I went out and ran for a half hour. With how much I got urges, I ended up running quite a bit. Afterwards I'd get that same exact feeling of relief and relaxation and calmnes...