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your so fucking smug are you?! do you really think he loves you? no one will ever love you, no one will ever care. your just a hole. your just a whore. you destroyed everything for me. i hope hes playing you like he played me. i hope you get to know how it feels. i wonder what would happen if i were...

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thank you for reading, it means a lot. i know how difficult it can be beinng with someone who lies all the time, so my heart goes out to you. take care! x

thank you sheshe27, that must have been a really tough time for you. do you ever wonder what if and how things may have been diffrent? i do. but then i learnt that you cant spend your life living on possibilities. i wish i was as strong as you say, i must not be showing just how much all this is aff...

thankyou suze. ive been to the websight. its proving to be quite helpful. it's still something that ive not quite come to turms with yet. it's nice to know that your not alone sometimes. thank you. sarah x

i wish j could love me. all of me! i wish i could be happy again. -it was nice. i wish hed never slept with her. i wish i could forget my past. i wish things could be diffrent. i wish i was diffrent. i wish id not seen all ive seen i wish id not been through all ive been through. i wish life wasnt t...

i found out the other day that he's still in love with me, so perhaps thats why he's being so strange. i told him yesterday that he needs to slow down and that he's destroying all the friendships that he's built up but he doesn't seem to care. i'm going round his tonight to see him. i hope he feels ...

wow! someone atchully bothered to read all that. thanks! hes not answering any calls or replying to any texts from me. i dont know, perhaps im just kidding myself that he still needs me in some way or another. i just find it so hard to believe that this is it after all we once had. the one person to...

im going to apolagize in advance coz this is going to be a really long post but i just need to vent this all and get it off my chest. i hope to god it'll all make it feel more real because at the moment ive gone back to the place where everythigns just a dream, a film happening around me that i cant...

no problem just take care of yourself. sarah x

i think that may be partly my problem too but like treasure writing detaled descriptions help. i dont SI anymore but i want to so much. i guess i just try to think of all the reasons why i shouldnt. writing a list of the reasons "why not" can be helpfull sometimes. distracting your imagination works...

i love you so much. i cant let you do this to me. i will do all i can to change for you. im so sorry my moods been affecting you. il try harder. il be happy, just for you baby, just for you. im sorry i asked for your help again. i shouldnt have asked you to do that for me again. but a week may not b...

j-i love you so much and im not sure why. youve hurt me more than you can ever know and helped me more than anyone else in my life. its some sort of irony dont you think? i hope we can make this work and i hope i can be your one and your only. im sorry for all ive put you through. g- i hope you you ...

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