bus

lost
upset
inferior

I hate myself

I hate you with all my being, i wish you pain and suffering with which you have never felt.

I love you and i don't know if i can go on anymore.

I love you

Its time i gave up on it all.

Your becoming a right self centered little cow of late, you should respect me more than you do.

Why can't i be happy with myself, why can't you see that i want to make you happy and love you.

Not sure i can keep doing this,
maybe its time i accepted it,

I like you so much and all i want to do is make you happy, i don't know how else to explain this to you and i iwsh you saw it.

Wish you would communicate with me like you do everyone else, i know your hurting and i want to help you so much.
Wish i could make you see that i like you so much and would do anything for you.

I wish i could get you to see me and to notice the way i feel about you.

I think i like you but i don't know how to tell you

they get on my nerves sometimes all i try and do is help


i wish i was dead more times the i could remember this week, i cut and burnt last night

If you think it'll do you some good then go there and i wish i could make you feel better inside.

Unloved, lonely, paranoid and broken hearted.

Right this one i found quite helpful, Sit so your quite relaxed, start breathing slowly do this about for a minute, breathe in and out slowly hold for 3seconds and then out do this about 5 times, repeat the above but hold in for 5 seconds and then out, now starting from your head on every out breath...

Sorry i haven't been on this part of the board for awhile. Right i'll track down where i put my relaxation sheets and post them tomoorw but basically they come in stages, i got showed these by my counsellor, the first stage is to tense muscles and relax them so that your body understand how it feels...

I think it's good that you can cry i can't myself i get to the point of cying but then it all goes back in and gets bottled up. I have no way of letting it out which is annoying. Its great though that you can cry and its good you feel comfortable enough to do it with your tutor.

I've looked at images and it has worked for me, to reduce the need to SI but then again sometimes its added to it.

Yea i know what you mean i can express myself better through this way i think compared to actual talking i can never really open up that way don't know why. Coming on here has been a real help because everyone here knows what it feels like and understands.