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Hm, I don't know in which forum to post this, but I thought I'd leave it here... I have the feeling that my life is so empty. The last few months I didn't have to work much for school, in fact I barely had to work at all. And this leaves me with sooo much time for myself. Which is great. But also sc...

I think I did quite well today?! I was not particularily looking forward to this day. I don't like sundays, I'm usually bored and restless and already worrying about the following week. So I try to sleep as long as possible in the morning. And this sunday was even more difficult because I had asked ...

:star: dylanlil :star: Welcome!!! It's great to have you here! It sounds like you have experienced a lot of bad things in your life, a lot of stuff to work through. Do you have a therapist? It's great that you realised that gambling was a substitute for SI and it's fantastic that you managed to quit...

I feel unworhty of many things lately. Especially when it comes to taking care of myself. For example I had very dry skin (especially face & hands) last week when I was in holidays. My mum said that it looks ugly and I should put some hydrating lotion on it. I refused to do it, I said I don't like l...

Hello there, I don't really know where to post this, but I decided to put it here. Yesterday I had a therapy session. I didn't tell my t everything that I intened to (it was too embarrassing) but quite a lot about pot and my relationship to men. She gave me good advise and proposed things I could do...

Today my mother asked me whether I had drunken from the Campari we have at home. I sayd that I did when my friends were here. She asked me whether I drink on my own sometimes. I said no. She said if I did, then she'd be worried about me, because it's not good to pour your problems down with alcohol....

I often feel like I have to "punish myself in advance" for something that I am going to do or that is going to happen. I don't know if you know that feeling when you are afraid of doing everything wrong and sure to end up in an embarrassing or painful situation. I often don't think of the positive t...

Hi :star: tara :star: thank you for your reply! I guess you're a Nirvana fan?! I am too! I'm reading a book about the band and specially about Kurt right now. I don't have any methods to prevent me from drinking and SI. I don't want to stop. Ok, methods would be listening to music, relaxing...but I ...

I guess I'm an alcoholic. I just have to drink when I'm alone, there's no other way to go about life. I'm on antidepressants, but I still don't want to live. Yes, I'm drunk right now. I don't want to stop cutting and burning, I just want this pain to go away...can you help me??????

If I found something which helped better than cutting, then I would probably be willing to stop. Something "better" means something that helps me more, that helps me to deal with the negative feelings. Because cutting helps a lot against negative feelings, but it can also create them. Why do I hold ...

If I was sure that I would make it, I would probably do it. Especially now, that spring is coming. Spring is the time when I am most depressed. I just hate it, the sunshine, the flowers - all these things just don't match my mood. And I guess if I get more depressed, I will try to stop cutting becau...

I feel like my urge to cut is growing. Eveytime I have negative thoughts, I feel guilty, I am angry - when there's any negative feeling, I cut, or I think of it and want to do it. And cutting helps me a lot for the moment, it takes away the negative feelings, I feel better afterwards. But on the oth...

:star: treasure :star: I can totally relate. I am overweight, and I use to eat a lot of unhealthy food. I sometimes just think "you're fat, so it doesn't matter anyway". But I think it is not the food which is the main problem, it is your attitude towards yourself. Blaming yourself for not having th...