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No one realises how badly im feeling at the moment and i don't even know who i could tell. My life seems to be falling apart more and more. And i know people think im overdramatic and if someone asked me if i was feeling badly, id say no im fine thanks. Just like earlier this morning, someone asked...

- thank you for making the site, i know you dont know who i am or anything about me and i guess thats why i found it easier to let some things go. It made me feel heard.

- your online now, i want to talk to you but im not putting myself out anymore. You need to be the one to talk to me, so im restraining myself because i know from you not talking to me, you dont want to and i cant get hurt at the moment.

- it feels like i never existed. I find out people who left have been invited back to the leavers assembly, and no one has mentioned it to me. Then i read in the magazine people that left were invited back to the celebration evening, i wasnt. You all find it fine to keep in touch with others out of ...

A - you hurt me this evening with your comments. You make me feel small and stupid constantly and you never realise it. You say that 'shut up' is all i ever say to you but all you ever say to me is something to start an arguement or something to put me down and who would want to listen to that? I do...

Is there any update on how avatars are going? just wondering as its been a while (about 3 weeks) since i sent mine in and heard anything back

- its quite funny really how i know that every time i see you log on, and i change from appearing offline, that you will log off. Did you know i call you my old best friend now? i wouldnt even call you a friend of mine still and id be lying if i said it didnt hurt.

frances wrote:Are post counts ever going back to what they were? I was under the impression they would.

It's not that it bothers me, ok, I lie, it really, really, really bothers me in an itchy under the skin way I can't express

I think they are, its just taking a bit of time to sort out im guessing

if i dont know what to expect, dramatic television programs affect me far more than anyone knows

- grrrr its frustrating you havent paid it, i need to use my phone Please pay it today.

- These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

I wrote a similar topic a couple of weeks ago now, you may find some of the suggestions people gave me useful:

http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=96977

- i know i never met you, knew you when you were alive but hearing your story made me admire you and inspired me. You made such a lot out of your life in a time when people had so little. You risked your life in the WVS and earned an MBE, that alone is admireable. Its hard to believe you went to the...

I chose this song because when i found it last night, it made me think and made me realise some things. And it gives me hope. <center>It takes a crane to build a crane It takes two floors to make a story It takes an egg to make a hen It takes a hen to make an egg There is no end to what I'm saying I...

- i read what you wrote in the old girls magazine and it hurt that i had to find out what uni you were going to and to study what from a magazine after being best friends with you for years. I miss you still but i realise im moving on and i have other friends now that are truely great that i wouldnt...

I dont like it that Toi is here still, i dont like the way she eats, the way she scuffs along the floor in her slippers, i dont like the way she is rude and ungrateful and eats all our food and doesnt eat her own. I dont like the way she makes my mum and dad pick her up whenever she wants to and not...

- i love you

i sent an email about a week and a half ago now and PMed twittermouse but have heard nothing since and i know just me sent an avatar in a while ago and hasnt heard anything since either.

- you guys are simply the best, i dont know what i would do without you sometimes, you make me smile whatever im feeling and cheer me up so much and you dont even realise what you do which makes it even more lovely and special. I have so many good memories with you and i really do hope we stay in to...

Going to the airport early one morning in August last year, getting on a plane and arriving in Northern Ireland to meet for the first time, Karolyn. She is even more lovely in real life than she was on the internet. That day was really really lovely