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I cant wait for you to be home again or to hear your voice. Its been far too long since i last spoke to you. It made me feel relieved when you said you hadnt been on a week ago as i had been worried id done something wrong, but i havent so its all okay :blush: I miss you and love you even more than ...

People say i should put on weight, but i am and its making me feel sick. To see my hips like they are has made me want to cut down again, especially on all the crap i have been stuffing my face with recently. I want to be thin. But more than that, i want to be happy. Thinner would still equal happie...

i wish you were here. I could repeat it till im blue in the face and lose my voice, but i miss you so much, like no one would believe. I have so much i need to talk to you about now but your not here and wont be till Monday. I need some reassurance about Saturday because at the moment i am nervous a...

when my mum used to do halloween parties for us when we were younger with all our friends from where we used to live and we would go trick or treating and play halloween games and it was so much fun, everyone still remembers them and i know Mei says they were one of her most treasured memories of he...

gabby - i dont know why it did, but talking to you for that short time earlier made me feel so small and insignificant and like im below you now. You had no interest in anything i said and i know now you dont want to know me, i wont try again. I guess i needed to try to know for sure.

i really liked 'Memoirs of a Geisha' when i read it a while ago now and i also liked Malorie Blackman's 'Noughts and Crosses', im still waiting to find the third book to buy it and read so then ill have completed the series! Another series i like is the one by Marianne Curley and its first book is '...

seeing my goats running around playing with each other when its sunny

I secretly wish that that phonecall i missed earlier was from you but i know there is no way it could be as your over the other side of the world and i havent heard from you yet since youve been on holiday, there isnt going to be any way in which you would ring me now. It would do me the world of go...

when we went on holiday with Clare and her family to Devon and we all went sailing and laughed until we cried at my dad's wetsuit and called him 'spiderman' and watched his attempts at windsurfing!

because i knew it would pass because it always does as i push things back to the back of my mind and also because i didnt want her to come home and find out that i had hurt myself.

because ive got through a week without Karolyn and even though ive found some parts harder than others i have got through it and stayed strong.

sad
upset
lonely
nervous
lacking of energy

when Karolyn and i went to Covent gardens and spend a really happy day shopping and buying beads and Mr Duck and getting excited in Hamley's with the trolls and the moving toys

because yesterday i got the job ive been interviewed for twice this week and i had convinced myself i hadnt got, but i have

ive just checked things and found out you were on them a day ago, why didnt you email me or something? it hurts that you havent

A hundred days has made me older since the last time that i saw your pretty face a thousand lights had made me colder and i don't think i can look at this the same and all the miles had seperate they disapeared now when i'm dreaming of your face Im here without you baby but you're still on my lonely...

im glad i got the second interview because after the conversation with my mum this afternoon i was starting to believe that i was good for nothing if i couldnt even get anywhere with a shop part time job

I got shortlisted for a job i had an interview for last Saturday and it was a tough interview but apparently the woman interviewing me really liked me so now ive got to have an interview with the manager on Friday.