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A little late coming back to this as I haven't been on BUS for 2 years! So; I finished an OK thesis - I wouldn't call it brilliant :-) I got a couple of papers out of it, one in a well respected international journal. Decided on industry rather than academia and have a job, my own flat and have move...

I cut short my holiday with my family to spend New Year with you, then you went back to your family and left me alone in my flat 500 miles from anyone I know. I hate the fact that in such a short space of time I've given you the power to unthinkingly cause me this much hurt. I'm really not sure I wa...

I want to cry but I'm afraid that if I do I won't stop until I SI
So I'll have to make do with BUS tears

Tired
Failed
Hurt

What is your secret? I had a fling with a friend of mine (and the ex of a friend) and the scary thing is I think I let myself love him Why is it a secret? Because he is afraid that his ex would be angry if she found out and (to be honest my ex would be more than a little hurt too) What are your fee...

C I owe you an explanation for this weekend but I can't find the words to tell you yet that aren't spiteful and hateful and jealous because I still hurt so badly. He's used us both and he put me through hell this weekend. I had a fling with D a while ago and I tried to stop it because I knew I was g...

C - I had a fling with D, it wasn't a big deal, it happened years after the two of you split and it's over now. I don't want to keep secrets from you but please don't walk away from either of us because of this - we both need you.

I want to make everything OK for you and I can't. What's more, I want you to turn to me, to find comfort in my arms but it's not me that you want. I know you are still in love with C, you never made any secret of that but when she wouldn't even answer the phone to you or reply to your letters I figu...

I love him, he still loves her, she and I are friends
It hurts

I'm pretending that I'm glad we broke up, that it's more fun being single - I can go out and party with my friends - no responsibilities - no-one else to think about. But really, I just want to be loved. I'm 26, i want to settle down, have a family and I'm running out of time to find 'Mr Right'

I dreamt about you again last night. I tried so hard not to kiss you in my dream, I asked if you loved her and you said yes, I woke up hurting and feeling guilty about my boyfriend. I'm sorry, we all deserve better than this.

I'm not over you at all - I'm afraid I am only seeing this new guy to distract myself from you and that's not fair on him. It's stupid because I know there is no hope of areal relationship with you and with him it could be great but it's you I fall asleep thinking of. Every time I see an army unifor...

You say that you don't want to be with me, that I remind you too much of her and yet you are behaving more like my ideal boyfried than any guy I've ever been out with. You come to dinner with my family, make me laugh, buy me presents that you know I'll love, call me when I'd down, tickle me, tease m...

I love you. I know you'll never be able to love me back but I hope that one day you'll be over her enough that you can be happy with someone. We can't keep doing the stuff we have been because it makes me feel like I'm special to you when I'm not. If I'm ever going to have a real relationship with s...

I finally told him how much I care about him. He's arranged to spend his leave in a different country to me. I've lost one of my best friends. But I don't regret it because I haven't dreamt his funeral since I told him. At least if he doesn't come back from his next tour he'll know how much I cared ...

You know now how I feel about you and I wish I knew if you felt the same. I want to trust you, I want to believe you are being honest with me. I really hope you are and I have no evidence that your not. It's just that common sense suggests that if you lie to everyone else you care about, you probabl...

D - Yes, I was upset when you called, it was tears you herd in my voice but I just can't admit that to you. I know I have no right to be, I know this is your job, I know I'm only a friend. But I really do care for you. I miss you, I was looking forward to seeing you. I'm hurt and dissapointed. I gue...

I sent my secret to postsecret and now I'm afraid that they'll publish is and someone will work out it's mine

tired
guilty cos I haven't done any work this evening

H - I do still love you but I think I love you like a brother not a boyfriend. You are still the only person who really knows me though and I never want to loose you. D - It means a lot to me that you value my friendship that much. I wish I could tell you that my feelings run deeper than that but kn...