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Jim - I think I might be falling for you, I'm really sorry, I know I shouldn't, I know I get a crush on any guy that is nice to me and I've tried to warn you. How come we can talk for 6 hours and talk about ex's and sex and us sleeping together and not mention how either of us feels now. What are yo...

J - so are you going out with her? when did it start? how long have you wanted her? were you thinking of her when you went to bed with me? how can she make you happy when I can't? do you love her? why didn't you tell me about her? why let me make a fool of myself throwing myself at you? why??? why d...

I want someone to come along and rescue me from myself

tired
unfocused
alone
in need of a hug but knowing there is no-one to ask

Yes, I do it too. It's made even worse because when I'm 'up' I can do really stupid things that when I come 'down' again, I regret, feel guilty about and hate myself for for days, weeks, months...

I wish I knew who I am and what I want from life
I wish I didn't care so much
I wish I didn't feel so much
I wish I didn't hate myself so much
I wish I knew why I feel this way
I wish I wasn't so afraid to try meds

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I hide my cuts but deep down I wish someone cared enough to notice

J - I wish I could take back all the stuff I have said to you, you are not worth my attention, you are immature, self centred and manipulative even if you don't realise it. Contacting you and letting you hurt me again and again is just another way of hurting myself and being self destructive. I have...

flattened

Hmm, I think all the suggestions so far are really good. My hobbies are quite water based, (swimming and scuba diving) and I am not sure how comfortable you would be with that but if you like the water diving is an amazing experience and swimming is something you can do on your own or with a club, a...

Diving! Floating free in endless blue (ok, green in the uk) water.
Wearing a bikini top and having nobody comment.
Making a new friend and discovering that I can actually make friends.
Sunshine.

I've never had one but I'm starting to think I should. I am finally getting enough positive memories that I could put pics and stuff in it. This might be a wierd thought but I am moving house next weekend and I am planning on trying to make my whole room a more postive place - a kind of giant emerge...

Please come and say goodbye to me. I am trying so hard not to hassle you but I just want to be friends, I want to chat about our plans for the summer, how your exams went, what competetions you are in, what you want to do next. I promise not to push any emotional stuff on you, I can't help the way I...

Name: Koru (Cat) Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Stop If so what is your motivation: Don't want scars, don't want to have to hurt myself to cope Favorite coping skills: Excersise, drawing, being with people, maaking things. Coping skills that work the least: Staying in and being 'lazy...

I cried very easily as a child which led to me being bullied a lot (it was entertaining for the other kids to make me cry), now I still cry over stupid little things (movies, newpaper articles etc) but I can't cry about anything that matters. Last time I did I cried for several hours straight then m...

I wish I could change the feelings I have for people.
I wish I could be happy with what I have.

From J - Stop worrying about when I am leaving Cardiff - I'll be here next year, I want to make a fresh start with you, I really care about you and as soon as my exams are finished we can sit and talk about it.

I do want help, but I don't want to ask - e-mail and tell me I have to see a counsellor because I can't go and make the appointment, I just can't. I don't want to be attention seeking and bratty. I'm sorry, I don't know if I am depressed or if I am just making a fuss over nothing. I shouldn't have m...

I can really relate to that, I finally let my ex-b/f see my cuts and he was like, 'that's OK' and I know he was trying to not freak out and be helpful but it just pushed me into wanting to make him see that it wan't OK. BUS also has the same effect sometime, I feel like I don't deserve to be here be...

J - I want to talk to you, how are you doing? I know I said I'd get over you but I'm not over you, I want to be with you so much. I want you to care about me, to understand me, to say you can handle me, that you want me too. I promised not to contact you but it is so, so hard. I want to tell you wha...