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Like I am at the top of a slippery slope or back on the downward part of the rollercoaster.

I've made an appointment with the counselling service, I am hoping they can at least catch me if I fall.

Panicky
Stressed
Unable to concentrate
Afraid
Incapable
A waste of space

M - I really don't fancy you, it was only a rebound thing in the first place. You are so arrogant you can't believe that everybody isn't hoplessly in love with you. Well, wake-up call, everyone I have met who knows you privately or professionally, can't stand you. Your bullshitting has been noticed ...

I will be a well known and well respected scientist in my field having written a brilliant thesis and several famous papers.

I will have tenure at a good university, my own house and a husband with whom, everything will be perfect.

And, Eek! I've just realised, I'll be 30

Excited but panicky

Confident but afraid

Happy but lonely

A - It wasn't a big deal for me either you know. Yes, I would have liked it to end up a relationship but I knew the score and I did exactly what I wanted to do, I'm not going to mooch about missing you and feeling hard done by so don't patronise me. You aren't as irresistable as you think you are. M...

OK, so why do I want to SI at the moment? I have the first of my real data from my PhD and it's not as good as I hoped. I have very little time to interpret it before presenting it on Friday, I have a lot of other stuff to do before then too (including a funeral on Thursday) and with all this stuff ...

I know it's a bit of a cliche but I have found that the only way to get comfortable being single is to try to stay that way for a while and involve yourself in lots of groups and activities. I usually break up with one guy and throw myself at the next available male. This time round that didn't work...

M - why aren't I good enough for you? what makes me 'not girlfriend material'. Am I not clever enough, or interesting enough, or pretty enough, or fit enough? I try, I really do. Or is it that my family background isn't good enough? That I can't change and wouldn't wish too, not for you or for anyon...

I picked mine because I am fascinated by eyes, I think they do provide a window to the soul. Somehow I can see an intensity of expression in this one and I think the drawing is beautiful.

I know that this is not a big deal to you. I'm trying not to let it become a big deal to me but I'm really struggling. It hurts that you like me enough to spend the night but that you don't want a relationship. The reason that it hurts so much is that it means that there is something you don't like ...

I've spent my life being academic and focussing on my work. I've always denied that I'd ever want children. Now I would love to have a baby of my own but I'm too stubborn to back down and admit it, besides, my parents will be so dissapointed with me if I give up a career for children

PM's OK

That sounds really hard. Not sure what I can say but I wanted you to know that I'd read. Like someone else suggested, if you want more replies you can post on main, there are more people there usually and there maybe someone who has been in a similar position to you and can maybe relate. Take care o...

Jim - I love you, you are special to me - said while totally sober and spontaneously
Ed - I'll get over you, this isn't entirely your fault

OK, this is my first post here. Mainly because this is the first time I've been urgy and around a computer at the same time since I joined the forum. * how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will take away the anger and frustration inside long enough to focus on the work I ne...

You are definately not alone. I was horribly homesick when I started Uni. I couldn't understand why my mum stopped calling me and she said later that it was because everytime we spoke I ended up in tears because I was homesick and she though she was making it worse. The only advice I can give is the...

I used to cry really easily and I was bullied at school because people thought it was fun to see how quickly they could make me cry. Newspaper articles, stories about missing cats even people at uni being irritated with me would make me cry. In the last few years (since my SI got worse) I have only ...

Jim - Are you OK, really OK? Do you want me to come and see you? I care about you as much as you care about me. I'll support you, call anytime.

Please notice that I'm not OK, please tell me that you can cope with me, that you'll support me, please make an effort to call even though it's not convenient, please don't freak out and leave, please...

Jim - I know I'm letting you mean too much already but you said you would be online to chat yesterday or today, it's 5pm now and you haven't been here. Please don't let me down...