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I wish someone loved me

I wish I could love

I wish I could meet someone good for me.

I stopped taking all my meds and have an appt with my Pdoc coming up....I have to tell him

I wish I could tell my dad I SI and he would still love me.

I wish I felt better about myself

I wish I had friends
I wish I wasn't fat
I wish I had someone special in my life
I wish I didn't SI
I wish I wasn't a failure
I wish I could fix everything
I wish my world would be okay again

I hope your body finds company that is good for your whole person. Someone that accepts you as you are and compliments you. I hope you find happiness.

I am scared of so much:

1. Failing
2. Being alone the rest of my life
3. Messing up at work
4. Letting my kids down.
5. Dying
6. That I will never being able to fully stop hurting myself.
7. That I won't have any friends.
8. Of letting people down.

I went to marriage counceling last night and talked about it. She actually said the same thing my son's therapist said that it sounded like a manic episode. They want me to take him to a physichiatrist that works in his therapists office. Talking about it did defuse my feelings. So it did help. Tha...

What's really stupid about this whole thing is they didn't treat it as a stupid question and came back with a good reply. I hurt myself for nothing...Not the first time this has happened. I need to remember that. Good & Bad I did such a good job of SI'ing that it's still healing and I have not SI'd...

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Hugs for you...I almost forgot. We all need to help each other. If you ever need xtra support or someone to listen you are welcome to send me a PM.

Thanks for the hugs Wendy

Wendy - thanks for your response. It's hard for me to handle people showing care or concern. It's just me. I don't feel worthy. I'll think about calling the doctor. It's not too much longer to wait - maybe I'll see if I can move the appointment up. I really don't like to bother a doctor if I don't ...

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes - I put burn cream on it what had happened just before? I'll have to retrace my steps. I've been really depressed lately and SI seems better than what I really want to do. My steps...My son called me at work saying...

Thanks Wendy,

I know your right. I have been working on it. I just need to work a little harder....

:( Have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes What had happened just before ? This is stupid, but here goes. I had made an agreement with my husband that I would get an hour "alone time" each night to journal, go on the message boards, etc. I was getting so ...

I don't have the questions in front of me tonight so I hope it's okay if I just write. I did hurt myself after my last post and again tonight. It just feels so hard sometimes between raising a teenager who is so angry at the world and tells me I care to much. He wants to go to someones house tomorro...