bus

you actually managed to make things worse. you are not listening to me. you say you are. if so then you are not HEARING me. nobody is HEARING me. i'm talking and talking begging for help and nobody is hearing me. you just assume that i won't off myself? you are so fucking arrogant to think that you ...

are you not listening anymore?
were you ever listening?
have you just given up on me?

size=18] Before You Self-Harm [/size] write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? these crazy strong feelings will stop, even for a few minutes. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will i...

it's fuckheads like YOU that drive their kids to si. you don't OWN your children. they are people. with feelings and ideas of their own. the more you try to keep them isolated and """"protected""""????? the more problems they will have. it makes me sick to know that your daughter ended up where she ...

you blew me off. of all people, the only one i trusted NOT to do this shit.

alone.

very alone.

ready to give up.

utterly and completely alone.

i'm your daughter, how could you turn your back on me after what i told you. you never asked me if i was okay. i didn't do anything wrong!!!!!! i WILL be fine without you. but what the fuck, seriously. i can't even fathom how someone could treat their own daughter this way.

i asked for help.

i'm proud of myself because i am still standing up for myself and what i know to be right.

Pearl Jam – Rearview Mirror I took a drive today Time to emancipate I guess it was the beatings made me wise But I'm not about to give thanks or apologize I couldn't breathe holdin' me down Hand on my face kissin' the ground Enmity gauged united by fear 'Posed to endure what I could not forgive... ...

i took care of myself today. i deserve it.

i can say in my case that i have used piercings as si. i have many, and i got most of my more 'extreme' piercings in response to extraordinary stresses. i'd get as many as the place would agree to at one time. and i felt on top of the world when it was done. i have two tattoos, and one was on impuls...

i feel like i'm a different species. i have never fit in, ever. and i dont expect that i'll ever find someone who will understand me, or put up with me. i can't even find someone to pay to listen to me. i call my mom to talk about regular stuff, but i know she only talks because she feels obligated ...

maid of honor dress.

everytime i went to the hospital, i was kept, because i went in because i was su. i've been i/p four times, and hte shortest was for two weeks. but each time i went in, it was through the er. so, i guess i do have hospital experiences then, don't i? :-? i was kept on watch, each time until they foun...

panic
like giving up

because my sister is getting married next year. im her maid of honor. i want her day to be perfect.

i already have enough ugly scars to hide from family, and to cover up to so that her pictures come out perfect for her.