bus

I can rant here all fucking night and its not going to fuckijnhg help ojnh bit. i need help. and nobody fucking gets it. she is full of fucking shit. full of shit. say good bye to your father. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I EVEN HAVE TO TALK TO THE SICK BASTARD? you, my mother, know JUST as well as I do why ...

sick
guilty
angry
terrified
alone

Thank you!!!!

um... i was like 26 and living on my own when my mom finally found out. go figure, after growing up in her house, and si'ing for 16+ yrs it took that long before she found out. what happened was i was sent i/p, and she was with me in hte emergency room. i had to wear a stupid johnny with short sleev...

Not sure where to post this, or who to pm. Could I please have my place locked? I can start a new one once this is done, right?


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Thank you!

notagain

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will not change the situation at all. the feeling will change in the immediate. but will still be there in the end if i hurt myself. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will brin...

done.

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS ALL WRONG. it's all so fucking wrong. god fucking damn it. FUCK! it hurts.

ive got ptsd from being sa'd. by my father . i dont want to trigger anyone, so that's all i'll say about that. webmd is stupid if they say it goes away in 6 months. ive been in and out of therapy. and stuck with it for hte last 2 1/2 yrs. ive had other issues to deal with, a divorce and abuse from t...

im worried that he'll get in.

im worried that he'll put me i/p.

out of control

how can you be so fucking clueless. you are backing the wrong side girl. you treat me like i'm some kind of mental patient, when they're the ones that need to be locked up. you do everything they say. you think like them, you act like them, and now you put me down and spy on me for them?! FUCK THAT....

fuck you. you say you'd be there for me if i needed you. well i do. it's not like i call you often, but when i do, it's because i REALLY fucking need you. this is NOT NOTHING. i NEED HELP damnit two hours later, and you still havent called me back? WHAT THE FUCK. i thought i could trust you. this is...

fortunately i'm very fair skinned and can always use the sunburn excuse. t's gotten me thru for a looong time now. doesn't get any easier, but you learn tricks as you get along. so i always have a bunch of long sleeved light weight white sweaters and hoodies and zip ups that i wear all the time. i g...

when i went i/p the first time, my mom was in the emergency room with me, and i had to wear that stupid johnny/robe thing with short sleeves. she saw. i tried covering up with a sheet, but that only did so much. she didnt say anything, but her eyes filled with tears. i overheard her saying on the ph...

because i can't irl...

Fall Out Boy - The Pros And Cons Of Breathing Lyrics I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself You know that I could crush you with my voice Woah I want to hate you half as much and as I hate myself You know that I could crush you with my voice Stood on my roof and tried to see you forge...

i'm worried they'll find out i'm really going to therapy and not to class!