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Thanks for the fix....I was quite confused for a bit....was a strange site the site for a while

I didnt because I have this new wonderful guy friend that I a mable totalk to about stuff....he has always been a good friend but I have just told him about stuff...cause he had noticed a scar on my arm...hes very relaxed and never gave me a funny look at all......he just smiled and said 'show me on...

****TRIGGS**** * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * I understand this fully...today while in La Senza....I invisioned me stabbing the clerk in the eyes with the hanger....it was graffic.... I have not SI'd in a long time....so I think quite possibly it is my missing of an old vice that makes me think...

The last time i wanted to SI i didnt because I stood at my daughters door and cried while she was asleep. Cried for all of the time i had wasted being sad, and hating. For all of the time I had lost with her. And for all of the times I had covered myself up in shame around her....I dont want to have...

:star: I wish i was skinny :star: I wish I was understood :star: I wish my scars would go away :star: I wish i was pretty :star: I wish i was not alone right now :star: I wish for no more urges :star: I wish I would get my wishes :star: I wish Jeff was there for me fulltime :star: I wish i loved mys...

My bestest freind in the world bought me a beautiful book to write in......and i vented for an hour last night...I am scared to read it....I prolly wont, but at least I didnt cut..YAY ME!

Thank you Mayalaen.....I will try all of thoe tips....

And no tips are silly or stupid....I dont hae any method except the phone....and thats not always the best option....thanks a bunch....

everyone else feel free to add input to Mayalaen's wonderful post

Tainted

wish they could be real....but thanks for this place to go....

I get really bad anxiety over silly little things..like not being able to find my cd or something.....it is strange... I was wondering if anyone had any good relaxing tips for me....teas, music,things ot think about, anything that would help me calm down at moments like this......I cant keep calling...

I understand the feeling of thinkin he does not care....They do care, and it is hard for them. To see someone they love hurting and not be able to help..He sounds like he is still there...and thats wonderful on its own...that you can tell him,...thats great as well. And wheather he gives advice....o...

YAY for me.....


thans for my Av...muchly appreciated

Tainted

thank you for this thread

The last time i wanted to Si i didnt because....I cant handle to see the Look in Jeffs eyes...He loves me soooo much. And I almost lost him because if this(because I pushed him away) and now he is with me again. I dont want to see the look in his eyes if I fail. I know that every time i cut.....it c...

Yes I am 25...and thank you, I will check out the ARC section....I have had a very warm welcome..it is nice to be excepted somewhere...and not be a freak

Can you help me and my feelings of self hate?..can you help me with my feeling of worthlesness? Can you be there when i need a hand to hold and a shoulder to cry on and a loving look...not a judgmental one....He left me cause of it, and now i am alone and lost.......can you help me with that? I pray...