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Whee!! Yay Yuxi!


I'm proud of myself for two reasons today..

-Even though I was nervous as hell before Musical auditions, I did not smoke one cigarette.. so that's 16 days for Dani.

-I think I did really well in auditions, and I'm really happy about that!

down.
a bit urgy.
nervous about auditions tomorrow.
awake.
spacey like.
anxious.

" I love you.. I will ALWAYS love you.. Nothing you could EVER do, would change that. You know I am ALWAYS here for you, and you can come to me whenever you need me. I love you Dani."

Yay Twitter!! I'm proud of ya!!

I'm proud of myself because I have went 15 days without smoking!

I really just wish that I could know I am loved all the time.. not just some of the time..

m- just fuck you okay?!

damnit damnit damnit!!!
I'm sick of her, i'm sick of HER DAMNIT

I wish she'd leave me the HELL alone..

blank.
spacing.
hurt.
empty.
unloved.

like my head is threatening to split open
tired.
annoyed.
bothered.

Random, more so than usual.
like a nagging feeling in the back of my head.
awake.

" I love you, nothing can change that. We all have baggage hunny, and yours, doesn't change the fact that I love you."

caffinated.

like an urge is coming on.

*looks in soundproof thread.. yes, a place i can scream*


Damnit, Damnit, DAMNIT!
Why in hell is this happening..
WHY CANT PEOPLE JUST TAKE CARE OF THEIR OWN PROBLEMS?!!!?

^^ more virtual tears..

i wish i knew i was loved, at all times so i'd know i have people there for me.

i wish that they'd care.

i wish that i was okay

tired
in need of coffee
like the want is still there (its really bugging me now..)

Better than yesterday.. for now.

tired.

Theres still something i want, but I dont know what it is.

B- Thank you. And everything else I can think of that I want to say to you, I have at some point in time. You are one of the few people I can be completely open with. P- I love you, and thank you. We need to talk again, but i dont know what to say yet.. I just know i need to talk to you.. and i'd lo...