bus

i want him back. i dont want to be this again *cries*

-i want my (ex) boyfriend to want me back, now -i felt he was the only person stopping me fromSI, no i have no *reason* not to SI/SU * * * * * * * * * * -i SI'd for the first time in a year last night. my leg is a mess. but i know that there is no-one to notice anymore -part of me realy wishes i wou...

*cries*

shit ive had enough of this crap

really am beginning to lose the will to keep going here

sorry just feeling like shit

right now i'm at the lowest of the low. i cant stop crying i dont know what to do anymore

i know for a lot of people (myself included) SI is a coping mechanism, an escape if you will. Maybe you feel that if you stop you will struggle to cope? not sure if i'm making sense

i've been SI'ing for about 5 years now, and if i had the chance to turn back the clock and stop then i would. But i know it isn't that easy or simple, if you wnat to stop BUS is full of people and posts that can help you through. i wear a wristband on my right wrist which covers some scars, but i al...

mine show more in extreme hot or cold. otherwise they are really quite faded

people do seem do have an idylic view of OD'ing

but they are so so wrong

i still feel ashamed of what i did

ur post makes me think about how much life is worth living and how death is not as "easy" an option as many would believe. thanx

i keep thinking it at the moment. my boyfriend is replying to my texts etc and i can't get hold of him, i just keep thinking taht he's gona off me, or that i've done something wrong and screwed up. i don't know what to do, i fifure, if he isn't bothered enough to contact me he doesn't love me anymor...

guess not then

"..so i have a little cry in the darkness of my room"

does anyone else have a habit of "testing" friends/family. you know, thoughts like "if they don't do this they don't love me or don't care" cos i do. and i know it's irrational but i can't help it.

reading taht peom/text is making me think better thoughts now thanx

i was shaking today. not cos of SI etc tho, i was in my media class and kind of lost it,but inwards if you know what i mena. i was just staring at my paper and shaking. i couldn't say owt, i freaked out.

sick of feeling numb-will it ever end?

I don't like my scars, but they are a part of me and even if i was offered treatment to get rid of them i would still keep them.

I spent several hours in absolute agony, i have never experienced stomach pains quite like it before. i got so scared, and decided i didn't wnat to die, but i already thought i was (i'd od on painkillers). in the end i hadnto tell my parents what i'd done so i could get help. i'll never forget the w...

beacause my boyfriend talked me out of it (it took him a few hours)