bus

really really bad day

knackered...i actually haven't slept..and now i'm trying to write a 3000 word essay

i'm proud of myself because i took inspiration from this thread and made a list for my wall of positive things and i'm aiming to add something new everyday

in pain and feelin really sick. i know its cos of my leg. and therefor my fault

stupid slip

i think with what happened to me (i posted it a few pages back somewhere) made me realise that even though i hated myself and didn't want to live, my family never stopped loving me. Its not the pain i went through, or the fear i felt that stops me from doing it again, its the memory of seeing the lo...

I agree, if you get the slighest hint of infection get it checked out, i had an infected cut and aside from being amazingly painful, it took a lot longer to heal. better safe than sorry.

take care of yourself

i just want to give up

Feeder-Just the Way I'm Feeling Love in, love out, find the feeling Scream in, scream out, time for healing You feel the moments gone too soon, You're watching clouds come over you. Torn in two, You close your eyes for some place new, Torn in two [Chorus:] And I feel it's going down, Ten feet below ...

:star: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i'll feel like i've done something about the way i feel. :star: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it'll bring a sense of relief, but also pain and guilt. it'll take away the f...

at my wits end

D- I'm sick of this. All my life you've never been there yet you constantly remind me that you're my "real dad", well guess what, you've never acted like a dad. You have screwed me up in so many ways, i'm angry at you yet to be honest i've had enough. The whole shares things is what has pushed me to...

*PM'S OK* Nan, I'm sorry i let uni and work get in the way of seeing you. I want you to know that i booked time of work so i could visit you in hospital, but you died the day before i came home. I never got to say goodbye and that breaks my heart. I tried so hard not to cry at the funeral, i was try...

- i can't forgive you for the way you made me feel. i will never forgive you for how you shouted at me, how you tried to blame M, how you lied about everything. you are not a good father. and i can't pretend to be ok anymore. this is is, i dont want you to be a part of my life anymore

A- I'm sorry for all of this. You try again and again to help me, and it seems i never take notice,but i need you to know i do. I'm so sorry for the things i have done, the things i've said. You have had to talk me out of the worse on more than one occasion and i cannot thank-you enough for that. Yo...

if it's comments that come from friends or other people you know, i find it easier to correct them, or at least to explain abit about SI to them. A lot of the time most people don't understand SI, so don't realise that what they say can be harmful

I don't want to stop SI, if i do i believe i will lose control of my life

i plan on starving myself over summer cos i yearn to be thin

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i might feel in control. i might feel better * what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? i gues it might make me feel in control whilst i do it, but it will take away my self respect. i pr...