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I don't want to hurt myself, you know I really don't but i have urges telling me to ignore that. I finally made it a week (and one day if I make it today) and my friends all celebrated, it made me smile, I like sticking stickers on my little calandar, every night I get to pick one "hard worker," "WO...

hey deb, thanks for handling this, keep us posted

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I dont really know what to say except our not alone. All the time little things don't really bother me then theres just this point where I break and I start bringing them up in fights and it ruins everything. People think that I hold grudges but its not that really.

wow. Im sure grandma is worried, but you shoudln't have to act happy pretending to be happy and bottling up your emotions only makes you hurt more everytime and in the end you just explode (even though that is so stereotyped).

Lately I've noticed that coping board has grown cobwebs while the BUS board his overflowing

poor coping board....

*dusts corners*

not so stange, because i do the same thing somtimes to give me a little scare.

-Dont feel I should write this because then it would be in stone--

Im not going to cut today because I deserve better

I was with friends something stopped me but I could have but I didnt I want to get those damn stickers.

Amanda, you look down lately talk to me.

Amanda, It's not your fault, you made an assumption that anyone would have made. You barely even knew her, you never told her to take those pills, but it's good that you care

It sounds like you have a hard time talking about this, how are you feeling.

if i'm going to SI why not have a decent reason, then agian what is a decent reason? I have a calendar and if I don't at the end of the day I get a sticker (this may sound stupid) but I really look forward to the sticker, every week and a half if I have gone completely without it I buy myself A my l...

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I dont want to have to make this choice I don't want to have to leave you behind, why this?

John, I was falling in "like" with you, you know it, you used it, either taht or you could be so oblivious, I mayself could not know until Kara. I have to stop this before it starts I can't have you in my life. You are becoming nothing of the John I used to know. People say they don't like you, you ...

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today I wish nothing for once though outwardly I look tired and worn I feel so happy

seth-sooth use five sense: (this is going to be long I hope you dont mind) Vision Buy a beautiful flower, make one space in a room pretty; light a candle and watch the falme set a pretty place at the table using your best things for a meal, go to a museam and look at painting you feel are beautiful,...

when I was very depressed people used to tell me all the time "Amanda, you used to be so happy, I don't even know you now." ANd I would slowly loose what happy was. I couln't rmrmber EVER being happy, only being depressed, even if I had a happy moment yesterday. try this if it helps, write down (jus...

something I love to do when I'm very angry is take a cup od Ice outside to my back yard (there is a sidewalk out there. then I throw them and smash them--It feels like real glass.

I dunno, sometimes it feels very good.

Thankx I was j/w