bus

a bit let down
happy?
excited?
like I will try to make the best of the situation.
like I want to tell a secret I am keeping now, but it wouldn't be right.....

How do I put my place in my sig but having it be a link taht says, "my place"?

HAPPY (I AM talking to RYAN)

anxious
happy
pensive
worried
waiting
anxious
anxiuos
anxious

I wish that on monday I would just get up and kiss Ryan and stop being a little bitch

I wish I was brave

im sorry to myself for not kissing ryan when I had the chance but I am going to change that

This is a happy scream AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YES I AM SO HAPPY I WANT TO SHOUT AT THE TOP OF THE WORLD RYAN LIKEd ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

Cant believe the other day I wished I was dead had so much fun today got to jump on Courtney's Trampoline with cool friends YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Okay you might not understand this but here goes my "street gang" (thats a laugh all in its self) called "spankies" just iniated teh coolest person in the world (Messy Spank ((her name is Messy for Melissa and all names must have Spank in them)) ) and we were making fun of this local gang at our sch...

Just wanted to let you know that I am here and listening. If you can get yourself away from any "tools" I know that is helpful for me. If you feel it is your mom and her actions that are triggering you then try getting out auctually visiting a friends or staying over someones house.

I could give some examples cause I do them alot. 1. Filtering: You focus on the negative details while ignoring all the positive aspects of a situation. " 2. Polarized Thinking: Thing are black or white, good or bad. You have to be perfect or you're a failure. There's no middle ground, no room for m...

What I often have to do in therapy is we have a phone and when I tell her that I talked to someone and it ended bad (such as we got in a fight) I have to pick up the phone (it's not connected) and show how I would have liked the conversation to go, things I usually say like, "I don't appreicate when...

this is important. Ryan- Right now is not the best time to talk cause I feel kind of down but I don't know how I feel. All I know is that I hate when people touch me, but when you hug me I feel warm inside (as chliched as that sounds) and I don't want to let you go. I love flirting with you, and on ...

I wish this all (meaning bad stuff) would go away.

You may feel "stupid" right now, but I'm sure you're not. Why is it specifically you think you are stupid? Why not take a break from you're homework, go out, even if just for a walk, then later come back to it, do it in ten or 15 minute intervals. You say you feel the need to punish your self (I oft...

I haven't doen one of these in awhile so I will do one to clear my head. i am... Amanda, Energetic, socialble, bubbly, nice, somewhere beautiful, brash, stubborn, and slightly coy. i am not... "retarded", dumb, embarrassing (to myself and friends), weird i feel... Often happy, scared, akward, flirty...

I often, when alone at night and feeling urgey I will do my makeup sometimes give my self bruises or other off things. When I feel down sometimes I will buy a new outfit or wear one I feel sexy in to bring me up.

Yay for rainbows and sunshine!
Yay for great friends!
Yay for Bus!
YAY FOR family!
Yay for everyone who has gone w/o SI!

coping is recognizing that things are hard, but not giving up. It is when you start to get to that place where you know you have options. It's when you may not be happy but at least you aren't cutting. Coping is something that is retrospectivly beautiful

This is a new one because I have been trying VERY hard to quit since I last took this survey Name: Amanda (Vows) Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: STOP (for a very LONG time) If so what is your motivation: ?Ryan? Him and me are both trying to quit at the same time Favorite coping skills...