bus

Gregg I WANT EVERYONE TO HEAR THIS FUCK YOU. I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE. We were DONE before but we're REALLY done now. IF I EVER SEE YOU AGAIN may god help you. IM SORRY YOUR SUCH AN ASSHOLE. IM SORRY YOU HAVE PROBLEMS BUT FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE IM NOT SORRY THIS IS OUR FINAL GOODBYE. I"LL NEVE...

hopeless despair

i am... -Amanda "Wendy" "Maria-Maria" "French fry" "Big Spank" -beautiful, worthy, lovely, 16 now, hyper (usually not now), Energetic (usually not now) i am not... -Ugly, a waste of time, out of control, ugly, ugly, ugly, WASTE OF TIME -sorry i feel... -Scared, confused, bored, scared, tragic, sorr...

hmm thank you much u are smart yayyyy!! lol

Vows

It hurts on the inside and I don't knwo why i want to cry, I wish I wnated to cut.

God I feel scared i dunno there is no locgical reason to be scared except that i have NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON im sooooooooooooo scared

how do I put a picture in a post cut and paste doesnt work

-determination
-other people's faith and beilief in me
-pride (others pride in me and pride in myself)
-A will and a strife
Hope

because Ryan told me he didnt want me to be sad, he is proud of me for going so long and he "doesn't want [me] to be a sad girl"

used coping skills

sick to my stomach (ate too much cake mix)

I wish today would be the best day ever!

I was wondering since this is coping what kind of things could we do to cope with these feelings?
-I will post back with my ideas when I think of maybe five of them

What motivates you to try a coping thing instead of si'ing? I am proud of myself everyone is so proud of me I want to make it to a month I want to get better If you had to move twice to cope i.e. move your body, what would you do? dance? It's three o'clock in the afternoon and you want to si, what c...

1) If you could paint the room you're in now to match how you're feeling or to what's going on in your life, what would it look like? Stipes, pink, blue, yellow, some spots of red, hearts and blood spills. I am pretty happy I am just waiting for things to come. 2) Change the image of the room to mat...

Do you use coping methods (healthy ones... ) in combination or just on their own? Um I try to do whatever works Name something that helps you to cope beginning with the letter 'A'. Acting, recite lines from a poem or play Do you see coping ideas as ways to banish feelings/urges or as a way to proces...

This will explain it all:

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
RAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

I wish this ryan thing could come to some kind of point or ground or somewhere where we can stop and have something to start with instead of wandering around in the dark

Don't be scared.

Everyone is here.

sarah- If I did this to you I'm sorry, you don't have to be bi because we all say you are a lesbian, I'm going to stop and I'm telling everyone to stop too. I care about you so much, you know that's why I stuck up for you from everyone. I know you don't like fights and problems but I don't want you ...

calm
achey
happy
benign & lost