bus

I had the same problem it was kind of odd, I posted something on Main & then went to edit it & when I hit submit it brought me to this site saying "website coming soon" or something like that. I figured it'd be up in awhile which I am glad it was

I hope I find courage & get the help I really need.

disappointed
sad thinking about Jonny

Jumper by Third Eye Blind

I never thought it would come to this
And i, I want you to know
Everyones got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away

tired, cried out, to quote my boss "burned out"

Jonny what do i have to do to get you back?
there has to be some way

please, god, forever can't be that long.

All this talk of getting old It's getting me down my love Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown This time I'm comin' down And I hope you're thinking of me As you lay down on your side Now the drugs don't work They just make you worse But I know I'll see your face again Now the drugs don't work They ...

worthless by default

fuck you and your "family status"! I'm 19 if I haven't achieved "family status" in my own family then im so fucking sorry but its not gonna happen.
so like i said, fuck your family status

excited.
nervous.
worried
but generally happy.

I will definitly check out some of these songs Thanks guys!!!

Now I'm Schemin On Plots To Make My Pockets Swell Simple Livin Is A Bitch But Damn, I Do It Well Some Are Fortunate To Make It And, Some Of 'em Fail Some Locomotives Push Through And Some Of 'em Get Derailed ... It Seems Like I'm Workin Hard Simply Cause It's What They Say I Have To Do You Graduate ...

I have a ton of songs on my ipod at one point I had a bunch of songs to help me relax on a playlist.

So what are some songs you guys relax to?

Maybe I will download them & add them to my list

i am... Amanda often fearful teary depressed entertaining (so I'm told) secret-keeper i am not... shy solely an alcoholic or my illness weak... well in the long run fake worthless i feel... tired slightly depressed i want... to go to sleep to not be fighting off these memories i need... people to t...

I am awesome because all different kinds of people in my life come to me and feel safe enough to vent

This world will never be What I expected And if I don't belong Who would have guessed it I will not leave alone Everything that I own To make you feel like it's not too late It's never too late Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just...

weary-- i work 14 hr tomorrow.

Let's get fucked up and die. I'm speaking figuratively, of course. Like the last time that I committed suicide, Social suicide. Yeah so I'm already dead, on the inside, But I can still pretend. With my memories and photographs, I've learned to love the lie. I wanna know what it's like to be awkward...

drunk.

which I would think was sad if I wasn't cause its like 11 am & I have work.
lol

happy
tired
worn