bus

you used me and I let you, now that's over so get over it.
don't devalue my relationship because you can't find love.
You don't know what I feel inside.

this was awesome to hear I'm proud of you for going after something you want. I admire that!!

good luck :star: Just try not to think about it. It's not a personal thing it's a business thing. And if they reject you that's not a personal rejection they just may not have the money or etc. I used to be so shy I could barely leave the house, it was crippling, now I'm one of the most outgoing peo...

anxious.
lonely.
okay.

when I see pictures of everyone with their mates I just get really jealous. Ryan's not around. We don't even have pictures of us together.

I appreciate that when I am so down you find the time to write out on paper how you find that i am a disgusting and lazy person. I don't know what's happening. It was like for awhile this family liked me. For awhile I was the favorite. For awhile I got to hang out with mom. So what happened? Now whe...

I calmly talked to the BF's mom.
I went to work

dare I say happy???

I didn't cry.

I'll be strong enough for both of us. But only for awhile.

i worry when you're in there they are going to find some way to tell you I wasn't good for you.

don't forget me

physically sick
mentally optimistic

focus on getting better. really try to get better while you're in there.

And please don't forget me. Please come back clean, but still my ryan.

Always be mine boo.

I'm having a positive outlook. I'm saying the things I wanted to tell Ryan because I won't be able to see him for a month

okay. nervous, but okay

yesterday I thought about leaving you, that was just the stress.
today I fell back in love with you.
things are going to be okay.

i feel like I don't know you.

you empty shell.


or is that me?
Because you're hollowing me out.

today I thought about leaving you, well actually I thought "even if I wanted to leave I couldn't because you're in a bad place, so I should start something that you finish." I honestly thought that. It scares me. What happened to this person that could love you forever no matter what. this person th...