bus

i'm not sure where this life is taking me. i'm with the most amazing guy ever, so i should be happy... right? but... i'm not. i don't want to lose him due to my moody and self absorbed self. that's the last thing i need right now but i feel like i'm running in circles and no one is here to pull me b...

i love you and i want you to tell me how you feel,
but when you tell me how you hurt yourself,
how you want to die,
it makes me feel like i'm slacking as a person,
which makes me want to do the things you talk about even more...


pm's are alright.

pm's welcomed you made me promise to stop self injuring, and that's great. but you don't understand that it's not that easy. i want to stop, and i'm working on it. but just because you've not done it for 3 months, and only have done it a few times in total, does not mean that it is that easy for me ...

i wish she would stop getting drunk. she truly doesn't realize that it affects everyone around her, especially her family...

i am...
-happy
-excited
-anxious
-tired

i am not...
-sad
-angry
-depressed
-suicidal

i feel...
-amazing

i want...
-him to ask me out!

i need...
-to probably go to bed

i have...
-so many thoughts running through my head

i love...
-him

i hate...
-nothing today, life is finally good for a change

can you ask me out already? you've told everyone that you are going to, but me. i'm actually confident about a relationship with you because i believe it could last.

excited.
happy.
ecstatic.
anxious.
nervous.
curious.

not crying today... instead, i wanted to let everyone who is, know that they are not alone and that i am thinking of them

I'm not running away from this boy; and I'm trusting him.

i'm scared but confident about this guy. he's nice and funny and caring. i just hope it turns out right and that i don't run away.

pm's okay.

I'm sick of all the pain in the world...

It's getting harder to see the silver lining in life...

i am... -tired -sad -warn out -drained i am not... -happy -okay -at peace/ ease i feel... -alone -confused -abandoned -sad -angry i want... -Matthew back -to be happy again -to be normal again -to be okay -to not fight with people -to not hate myself -to not have weight issues i need... -to go to b...

Dear you, It tears me up inside to admitt that I was trying to move on and forget you. I now realize that I could never forget you; why would I even have wanted to? I need you now. I need you to be here. You will never be back though, and I need to accept that, but I just can't. I still feel like I'...

*cries*

I can't seem to stop crying right now.

I miss a friend of mine... things haven't been the same since he passed...

I'm still fighting to get through this and be okay.

PM's are fine :star: I "try" to make myself believe that I'm over your death, and that I will be okay. The truth is every day is a struggle to get through without you. How could I move on from someone who helped me with everything and who I talked to everyday? I need you, but for now I'll just keep ...

I'm tired of being the stupid teenager. I'm tired of feeling as though I do not matter. I'm tired of trying to think of people that I "may" hurt if I left...pm's okay.

people keep telling me to go get help. to stop this all before i get in too deep. to be honest, i find comfort in knowing i will not get help until it is forced in my face, by someone other then myself. why? because it is not just about the weight. it is about hiding from this world and everything ...

I too have just joined. I will look around see what I'm supposed to do here. But I am willing to help, just let me know

~lonely
~confused
~frusterated
~scared
~worried

Very good post.

:: I am caring
:: I am a good listener
:: I am coming closer to God
:: I am staying as strong as I can through all of this
:: I am finding reasons to stay alive