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I miss you. I think I could have loved you. I miss the way you make me laugh - no one did it like you before, and no one since. And I have no means of contacting you and will probably never see you again which is why I stopped myself falling for you. But I miss you! And thinking of you makes me happ...

I don´t think I miss you that much, especially when you whinge about the same thing over and over. But, I do love you. And it makes me smile to talk to you. And I am looking forward to seeing you again. I miss you both a ridiculous amount, but I will be back soon. And I am so happy, even though I wi...

I miss you. And pretend I don't. And I'm sorry. I hate that you are gone and I desperately want to bring you back. And I feel so pointless and so helpless. And I want you back because I now know all the things I would do differently. And I wish I could still believe you were coming back. I miss tha...

I'm afraid I just don't believe you when you tell me that.

I don't like you anymore.

Hmm, this is tricky because it sounds like you need to communicate to the Therapist(s) how you are feeling but are scared to, which imo is not how therapy should work at all. Could you print of what you wrote there are give it to them at the start of your next session maybe? You said that your CBt p...

I miss you. ANd soemrhwo gwetting ovewrly happy and hyper and uenrgetxci anmd whathwve you teels tnyhead I;m okas.
Adn then im remember yjtat IK'm not, dod I haver to don evern moers to daty happy.e

Alice can't still be here because it hurts too much seeing the people she loves in so much pain. Alice can't, won't and doesn't cope with loss. By being on here, Alice has to face it. Is it selfish to want to curl up in a corner so there never comes a time when Alice is faced with loss again? Alice...

I'm worried that, to my knowledge, you haven't found the need, nor in fact wanted to talk to anyone about what happened. And I know how awful that can be. And I wish I could come over to you and hug you and let you cry on me. I wish I could tell you that crying hurts more than talking does, is hard...

I'm sorry. I really am. And I wish that now you'd talk to me. And ask me what's wrong. Because. I want to tell someone. Anyone. I do. I'm so fed up of hiding. I want you to care. Care enough to overlook the rudeness. Care enough to ask what I'm struggling with right now that is making everything so...

please make it better? please go away. please help. please tell me what to think and how to feel, because by myself I am messing it up. please stop it. stop the hurting. stop the confusion. do to me what i cant do to myself. no one would have to know. because no one would notice. because no one rea...

Wish I could stop it all. Because it hurts when I think about what's coming to you...

You annoy the fuck out of me you attention seeking twat. With your stupid cronies hanging around you. Need the protection and back up it would seem. You pathetic waste of space. Please, do good on your threats. Because however much you pretend they are not threats, they quite clearly are. Designed ...

It actually makes me a little bit sick...

Why don't you just fuck off. Yer?

I'm sorry Mummy. I am so so so sorry. And I love you. I absolutely do. I love you so much, and I am so very sorry for...a while back. I wish I could say I didn't mean any of what I felt and thought then. But I did. I very much did. I just. I don't now. And...it's now that counts, right? I love you ...