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Branden- You don't know how much it hurts to know that you lied after i gave you A MILLION AND FIVE chanced to tell me the FUCKING truth. Well...hey at least we only kissed huh? But what about those words that healed me? What happen to those? Did they all dissappear???????????? Mel- Stop bitchin an...

my mom doesn't listen...

My SI/ED was for punishment, control, and just plain "dealing"...so yeah. I hate that I won't tell anyone what is going on...my cousin (Niel, a girl) just committed suicide...i found her, Taleeni (my other cousin, Niels sister was with me...but that was yestereday..so yeah i was down before that...

Now what I am doing instead of *si*...shutting myself off from contact with people...i talk to about 3 people...no joke...normally i'm a social butterfly and i'm lively and stuff...but lately i've been shutting myself awawy..does anyone know why i would turn to that instead of si and ed and such.......

I am 17... and i don't trust any adults, not even my counsler anymore...

My mom hasn't hit me in a long time...last time was she stabbed me with a fork on the arm...not on purpose...but yeah... I told her that my dad is doing drugs agian and she HIT me...i have a bruise on my face (which i cover with like 20 layers of coverup)...what do i do??? What can I do? I just ign...

I really need to know some reasons why i should keep on recovering...PLEASE i'm really desperate here...i really need help thinking of reasons why i sould keep recovering...i have TWO resones so far.... 1. I don't want to die 2. God is telling me to let it go PLEASE HELP!!!

Ana (anorexia)- I HATE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO DIE!!!! YOU MAKE ME CRAZY ... YOU CONSUME MY MIND..YOUR ALL I THINK ABOUT...LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAYLEE-I LOVE YOU AND I'M SORRY I'M SUCH A SHITTY FRIEND MIKE- YOUR HAUN...

Yesterday i was supposed to go swimming with my mom and brother, and i really wanted to go...i put on my bathing suit FREAKED OUT!!!! I used to have an eating disorder, and just had a relapse about a month ago, and now my mind is telling me the same things it used to. I was at *x* lbs freshman year...

PLEASE DO NOT REPLY IF IT'S A HARSH STATEMENT I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT THIS SUBJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! * * * * * * * * * * I was molested in 1st grade...by a girl, one of my "bestfriends" at the time (she was older)....i never really told anyone...and this is like the the third time...

Thanks for all your replies!!! They helped and i'll keep you posted on what happens!

It been along time since I've *si*ed, but the urge is returning, but i'm fighting it well. I guess my problem isn't my self, but i have a friend who it struggling with it, and i want to help her out, but i can't seem to put into words why i don't anymore...its basically b/c i put everything into Go...

Today was Tom's funeral...and i went. It was closed cassket considering the circumstances. The police found that Tom, Nick, and Cameron fell 858 feet off a cliff in Tom's Jeep Corokee (which i've ridden in, and loved that car...i remember it well)...the collision with the ground was what killed Tom...

I just found out my friend Tom died...heres' a poem... Pieces here, and pieces there, help me look, but do not stare. One last call, "I love you guys," one last breath, but no good-byes. One friend left, he saw the pain, he must live, with all the shame. CPR, but he's already gone, pieces left, on ...

"Kate"- I know that we're damaging each other...we did today....but if we stick with it ... together...we'll be okay. *ED*-I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YET I LOVE YOU! I DON'T GET IT! M.P - I'M AN ANOREXIC...DON'T GIVE ME A DIET BOOK YOU FREAK! Indian- YOU FOUND OUT I'M ANOREXIC...HOW????????????????????????...

I finally realized I fooled myself into thinking I got better, and wasn't anorexic anymore. I am ... still am, and i'm phychologically worse than ever. Tho physically i am "normal" (my counsoler told me i look "normal"....in MY world normal means fat!!!!), phychologically i am deep in it. Losing we...

Before i tell u my dream..heres some background...April 18th will be 4 months free of si ... here was my dream.... SI * * * * * * * * * * * * * this girl (Brionna one of my friends) handed me this knife and we were in a tent. I have no idea where we were or anything besides in a tent in kinda-small...