bus

I'm so disappointed that you're not more supportive. And I feel guilty for saying that.

i am... treading water, - surviving but not getting anywhere. i am not... looking forward to tomorrow. i feel... very disgruntled with myself i want... to sleep, because then I don't have to think. I feel safe in bed. i need... some real life support i have... to try to be more productive. i love......

I'll be disappointed with myself tomorrow.

bereft

I'm so scared of bumping into you on the street.

I think that you're constantly looking for reassurance that you're better than everyone else here, and I won't give it to you.

so very bored of myself

I find it strange that my sexuality is an issue again, if only with myself.

I wish that you considered me more. I think of the phrase "do as you would be done by" and I think that I treat you better than you treat me. I feel sad. I wish that I mattered more in your life. Sometimes I wish that I didn't need other people.

lonely
confused
torn

like I am never, ever going to be able to do this.

defeated.

why aren't you here? why don't you fight for me?
can you pinpoint the exact moment when I lost my meaning, or did you not even notice that?

I want someone to need me again.

like an outcast

where are you? At what point did you stop being interested?

like I wish I had enough money to afford to live by myself.

like I'm not being heard.

I wanted you to help me feel better, not remind me of how much I am failing.

you are so self-righteous and antagonistic, that I find myself echoing you instead of ignoring you.

I really don't like you. I think you behave like an idiot. I have no interest in you and you obviously have no interest in me. I would never choose to spend time with you and yet I find myself sharing a house with you. I wish that I'd stood up for myself more and said that I didn't want you here, ra...