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Name: Andy aka twisted Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: trying to reduce as much as possible, but have no faith in stopping If so what is your motivation: i dont know... expectation from other people i guess... Favorite coping skills: playing guitar, real loud, real fast. Coping skill...

hmmm.... id say its the second best, but definitly one to concider if you can afford it :P


learning to play guitar started as just an attempt to please my parents and has turned into one of the few things i love doing, so yea,

*hands over the money :P

yup, seems to be working :)

its funny that we had 23 people logged in in the first like 15 minutes of it being up :)

i agree so much with BlackTara right now

as ive become more and more depressed.... my sleep hasnt *changed really... i still get about the same amount, but....


there is NO WAY that i can lay down and get to sleep with-in like 30 minutes anymore...

im ussually awake untill around 4am when i force myself to try and sleep....

lol, depends on the mood... i can ussually easily control myself... but every now and then i slip far enough that i just dont care... if that makes sence

yea... for me at least, they dont help me get to sleep, they just make it so i stay asleep so i need to be really careful about what time i take them, and what time i fall asleep, if you wake up before they ware off, youll probobly still be tired and only half-awake like, my only suggestion i guess ...

any time i cant get away from people or things that are triggering me, or what not, i find that the only thing i can do is concentrate on just breathing, ussually just being insainly focused on just that is enough to distract me for a bit, although, now and then i get funny comments because it apear...

i made a smart choise today, after one really bad day with my family i was smart enough to take the first chance to keep myself in the company of my friends for as long as possible [im still there and not leaving yet... i still want to SI but not tonight...]

only things that i know to do at night are: ~write in my online journel [all those random things i cant tell ANYONE in person, and couldnt even put in writing if someone i knew might find it...] ~play along to songs with my guitar unpluged.... ussually while upset or whatnot i play either real good,...