bus

having family at home
getting an unexpected compliment
finding a book that's been missing for months that i wanted to read again

stressed

the pine tree smell of the christmas tree
ice cream
driving to an appt & home safely

cats
tea
fuzzy blankets

tired
confused
hurt
lonely
unwanted
invisible
numb
empty

being given a bunch of flowers
having the car to myself
stormy weather

confused
worried
empty
something else i can't pinpoint

moved 'cause i posted it in the wrong thread i tried. actually tried. i replied when i didn't want to, i was honest, i told you that i miss you ... yet you ignored me, you cut me off, blatantly showed how much you hate me, and how little i mean to you. you just told me that you cared only a couple o...

eventually yes i think i would, the very visible ones anyhow. but i'd have to be very sure that that part of my life was behind me.

- clean sheets and jammies
- hot chocolate
- bubbles
- cuddly cats

lost
empty
lonely
confused

help.
HELP, HELP, HELP, HELP, HELP
there. i'd yell it, i'd scream it, but i won't make a difference because you leave anyway.
i'm sorry.

i am... capable i am not... bad horrible fat manipulative stupid i feel... confused overwhelmed numb i want... to hide for everything to be better to be honest i need... to sort out my thoughts to study for my exams freedom space time alone i have... a cat on my knee a family that cares about me i l...

confused
isolated
flat
unhappy
empty

tea and coffee (but not together )

running down to the letter box at 11am in jammies and not getting odd looks
taking a shower
being trusted to stay home (even if it is with brother)
having a day off from work
getting a little bit of study done

new shirt
coffee
cats that want to be hugged
heavy blankets
nice smelling soap

- cats (again)
- slippers
- having the house being nice and warm
- finding a good book

don't talk to me if that's all you can say.

- a bedroom with four walls (finally)
- watching a silly movie
- people at work being caring and supportive
- cats
- letters