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I have no one close to me anymore.

I've been eating my hair.

I've been making myself throw up.

I went for counselling on my university campus, and that was also part of the confidentiality agreement. However, because I was so scared/worried about it, I just didn't mention SI at all (I was already terrified of being there - took me 3 weeks to even make the appointment, let alone go!). So maybe...

I'm the same as you in some areas... I know I'm intelligent, but I'm also a total failure (in everything, but especially school)... and I view myself as being kind-hearted, loyal, compassionate, etc... but also as an overall terrible person.

I don't know how I have such conflicting sides, but I do.

Do you use coping methods (healthy ones... ) in combination or just on their own? I usually go through phases with them... so rarely in combination, but occasionally I do. Name something that helps you to cope beginning with the letter 'A'. Sadly, alcohol helps me. But on a healthier note... so does...

Hmmm... I would suggest Mogwai's "Happy Songs for Happy People"... or any album from Sigur Ros. Also, possibly some Sufjan Stevens... try some songs like "To Be Alone With You", "The Transfiguration", "Sister", "For the Widows in Paradise, for the Fatherless in Ypsilanti", "John Wayne Gacy, Jr." and...

I feel ignored around the people I love the most.

I remember asking about this on these boards once too. :) I have moments when I can clearly picture myself in violent situations... whether I'm envisioning myself SIing (very vividly in that case) or I'm picturing a car accident or something... it happens without warning really. In general, if I fee...

Sia - "Breathe Me" Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me Ouch I have lost myself again Lost myself and I am no...

:star: I only got angry with her because I knew she was entirely correct and that I'm a total fuck-up. I wasn't angry that she thought I'm becoming a big failure, I was angry that it is true. I just masked it as outrage. Then when she apologized and obviously felt bad, I felt even worse - because I'...

I've always wondered if what I do would be considered Trichotillomania... and I'm still not really sure (I don't pull when I'm upset, it's just more of a compulsive thing - and I rarely pull from my head and eyelashes). But after reading some of the stories on that site, I really feel less weird abo...

I'm curious about this too, because I tend to have the same problem. It doesn't bug me too much, but it is a little annoying when I get side-tracked from what I'm supposed to be doing because I started pulling out hairs randomly. I pull hairs from my arms and legs sometimes, and I have a habit of pl...

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WTF is wrong with me????????

-comments ok, (pm) but not necessary- -I have no idea where I will end up in life -Sometimes I think I will never be in a real relationship.. and in a way I'm scared to be because I feel as though I'll instantly become dependent -I fail because I am lazy -*SU/ED trig* * * * * * * * * -I want to kill...

I'm kind of ashamed of them I guess... I keep them hidden as much as possible at all times. If someone notices and asks, I panic right away and fumble around for excuses. It's hard for me to deal with the fact that others can even see them I guess, because it's such a personal matter. However, I'm a...

I can remember exactly when I started... I was 12 and had just started the 7th grade. I was having a hard time at home in certain ways, and I was having a hard time at school because my friends basically had all turned into the biggest group of bitches ever. I didn't know what to do, I got super dep...

Yea, I think it has to do with blood flow or something.

In extreme hot or cold, or after exercise, mine (especially on the forearms) are MUCH more visible.

I've always had some level of social anxiety, I think.. whether it affected me strongly or not. Lately it's been a lot worse. Somedays I'm perfectly fine, but on others I find it hard to leave my room at all. I find that it's not so bad unless I'm thrust upon some sort of social situation that I had...

The only thing I notice is that you said that it's difficult for you when you have the visions, and that it often happens when you're intoxicated. Hmm... maybe you could try cutting down how much time you spend intoxicated? I know for me anything that helps me not to SH is worth trying. I'm actuall...

Does anyone else do this? I am becoming seriously determined to finally end my SI problem, and I haven't had much urge so far... except that sometimes I can vividly picture myself self-injuring in my mind, and it's making things difficult. This especially happens if I am intoxicated in any way (whic...