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Comments/pm's welcome SA/SU * * * * * -I have and inherent distrust of guys beacuase of SA, i think they are going to make me do stuff i dont wanna do. i think this is all in my head untill i'm alone with a guy and i'm fine on the outside, but freaking out inside. -sometimes i wish i was dead, but s...

comments are welcome-PM *trigs* * * * * * * -Me and my best friend tell each other everything, except i dont, i dont tell her about my SI/SA and i feel so guilty :cry: -everyone thinks i'm the happiest most carefree person they know, i'm not really -I dont think i could ever kill myself, but sometim...

yeah that happens to me aswell. Sometimes the images are quite graphic and can be a bit upsetting but i usually manage to ignore them
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i really wanted to si tonight, caus i just felt a bit sad. but my flatmate asked if i wanted to make some cakes so i did that all night and had a right laugh with her

i sometimes draw on myself with red pen, it helps me control my urges sometimes which is good
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I find nightime bad, its probably because i am usually on my own, when i am with people i feel happier. Sometimes i do like time alone but if i am with people i dont cut which is good.
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I love swimming!! I havn't been recently caus i've got a bunch of cuts on my leg at the mo, also there is communol changing. I don't mind if ppl see them, i just don't want my friend who i go with to see them. I really want to go swimming though because i find it really relaxing and its good exercis...