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I've never really had any convos about SIing but i actually thought the ideas given to you were interesting. have you tried any yet?

apparently it is. all i want is for people to leave me alone. they keep bugging me and wondering why i snap at them so here it is. MY STEPDAD LEFT US. he tore the house up, left a note for my sister knowing that she was the most attached and would find it all first. SHE wAS FUCKING FALLING APRT IN M...

i am...fairly happy for the moment -talking to my bf -watching Basic i am not...depressed for the moment -wanting to die -wanting to cut i feel...coy -playful i want...to dance -to cuddle my bf -to eat cookie dough i need...to stop eating cookie dough i have...a mountain dew headache -a jones for co...

i can think it's not true all i want and i do try but it just gets overwhelming. i can't not think about it and how much worse it is...i hate fishing for compliments, i couldn't ask someone to refute that because they're probably thinking the same things. even my friends. i would hope it wasn't true...

i feel the exact opposite, i always want to SI, but my body tells me not to, like i'm not in a physical mood for it, you know? i suppose that's a coping mech. for me lol

no, i'm afraid and extremely paranoid of t's and councillors...i hate them and it would make me feel out of line to ask for one.

Name: depends; jo, rachael, jordan Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: reduce for at least a few months If so what is your motivation: going out to my grandma's house, seeing my family out there that knows nothing about it... Favorite coping skills: writing on myself with red marker, writ...

i do. i used to be really outgoing in 1st grade, then i got shy, then it just went downward from there. now i can't even walk across a room with three or four people in it because i can imagine them all staring at me and saying nasty things. i can't force myself to do anything that involves being in...

I wish that i didn't believe that i was only his convienance I wish i didn't have my inhibitions and concience i wish i could've said goodbye i wish he would talk to me i wish i was in italy so i could talk to him i wish i didn't want to see him again i wish i could let him go i wish i never met him...

A-you're not thinking things through. i'm happy you're happy but don't get married right now! you're too young! go to college! E-I love you, you're wonderful thank you for loving me as i am. R-you dumb ass bastard! i hate how i can't hate you! you think i'm so important now, you should've thought ab...

great suggestions! i found that writing a journal is good. i have one that i keep with me that has happy pics in it, a list that i made of all the things that make me happy, and other suggestions taped to it...

Reading for fun-- trashy books, mysteries, magazines
Smoking

trashy books? lol, what would those be? smoking?? you would exchange an addiction that only leaves scars for one that would kill you?! i'm sorry, but one, i'm allergic and two, i have asthma caused by smokers so no thanks.

that's just it though, i don't care if people see, i'm more ashamed that i hide my scars than that i have them. i love my scars and i don't want to hide them anymore.

since i've come to this site, i've found all these helpful suggestions on quitting and distraction...when i first started SIing, i was really scared of it and now i'm more comfortable in myself with doing it and i keep feeling like the only reason i keep trying to quit is to satisfy everyone else's ...

i agree! i play keyboard/piano, violin, and the drums! the drums are such a good instrument as long as you don't abuse them when you get in a si mood. they're really good for playing your tensions away, plus you have to multitask so there's not much room to think about anything other than the three ...

i hate talking about myself (believe it or not, lol!) i hate how every sentence starts with an I or a ME ...it makes me feel selfish and stupid, like i'm always talking about myself which in reality i suppose i am...but if i get put into therapy which i might be soon, i have to talk and i really don...

yeah! drawing on my arm/pants/hands with red marker has been a real help!! i keep a small journal with me, i write down whatever is triggering me and then i draw cuts on my arms and my knuckles...plus a neat little idea that is helpful and it looks cool 9well, her eit is kindo f a fashion statement)...

i've never heard of it...why do yu want to get rid of your scars?

it makes plenty of sense wynndi! sometimes i do it for that reason, but sometimes it really is for a reason and i always end up feeling selfish...i'm not sure how that is, but usually i don't feel anything, i kind of black out...like i'm still awake but i don't really know what i'm doing...i can't r...

I have found that a really good suggestion is to draw cuts on yourself with a red marker! it's a bit conspicuous sometimes, people always stare and ask about the marker, but the red marker combined with a small journal to keep with you for when you want to SI, it helps a lot!