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I'm sorry you have so much on your shoulders right now. I don't really have much to say in relation to si because I'm struggling myself, but I just wanted to let you know that you have my support and I hope you are able to find the strength to get through the semester. You are so close to finishing,...

Hey everyone. I don't come here often, but I've been struggling with the desire for a few days now and it seemed best to come here and sort out my feelings. Suggestions are welcome, or not. I really just need to write my feelings down to help me think straight. 1. how will this situation or feeling ...

I paint. It's relaxing, keeps my hands occupied, and there's no wrong way to do it. Also throwing red paint around a gigantic piece of cardboard kind of satisfies my urge to see blood.

Take care and good luck!

Hey Beth, It sounds like you're going through a really rough time. I just wanted you to know that I read your post and I hope things get better. *hugs* (if ok). I think it's awesome that you feel you're ready to get out on your own. I wish I had enough confidence to do that. Please don't let your mo...

**great big bear hugs**

I have been there as well. For me si is like an addiction- sometimes I want to do it for its own sake, not because I'm triggered by anything else. Kudos for fighting the urge! Keep taking care of you, and pm if you need someone to talk to.

i'm wondering if it would help to think more about what it means to you to cry. why does it feel so shameful? where did you learn that it was wrong? what does it mean for you to do it? how do you think others would react to it? Good questions. I had to think about them for quite awhile. I suppose I...

Hey all, This is my first post in before & after. I’m very dicouraged right now, so if anybody has any suggestions or thoughts I’d really appreciate them. Thank you all! have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes, I bandaged them. what had happened just befo...

Because it makes my dad cry.

I get "freaked out" in public places a lot. Especially school, church, places where there are lots of people. I think being around too many people at once really triggers me. No advice, just wanted to say "me too!"

My feet... does anybody else love their feet? I do!
Smiling and saying hello to strangers. Smiles really are contagious!
Leaves (they are so beautiful!)

My emotions are always going up and down. One minute I'll feel great and the next I want to curl up and die. You're not alone in that. So, you're feeling bad about not feeling bad? Like, if you're going to feel bad at all you should feel bad all the time? Is that what you mean? Try to soak up every ...

:star: Wearing my favorite clothes, like fuzzy scarves and sparkly bracelets, and especially my pink shoes. Clothes really have a way of making me feel happy. :star: Letting glue dry on my skin and picking it off. Weird, yes- but don't knock it till you've tried it! It gives me the same good feeling...

Ooh, a deserted island... that actually sounds kind of nice. Better than here. :wink: I'd bring: 1) my journal so that I could write. Writing is everything to me! 2) My boyfriend. We would have awesome adventures running around, climbing on things and trying to get home somehow. Also he would make m...

I'm imagining my life without him and it is colorless, lonely, empty, pathetic. I don't want to spend my life chasing him across the country, but I'm terrified out of my mind at the very idea of living a single day without him loving me. I don't want to do this life thing anymore. I don't want to ge...

I wish I didn't know so much about my own body. I wish I had stayed naiive and innocent instead of learning what sex feels like. Now I am hooked and it only causes trouble for me!

For me, long nights are good for diving into things that are too time-consuming to do during the day. Clean out my closet, put pictures in an album, make pretty "I love you" cards to send to friends. It helps to focus on a task that requires my full attention, instead of letting myself lie in bed an...

Because I believe in a spiritual realm, and I believe that my depression/si urges are attacks from evil spirits. I've been having urges since last night but I refuse to lose the battle. I pray, write on myself, attempt to distract myself with homework, and play minesweeper (I love minesweeper!)

My grandfather died last year, and that was pretty traumatic and scary. He lived with me and my family, and I watched him slowly waste away mentally and physically for about a year before he finally died. For me it has helped a lot to talk with others who were close to him. It's refreshing, after wr...

Good question for me to ponder.

Um... I suppose working through my SI, not doing it anymore, would help redeem myself in his eyes. Good place to start, anyway?

Thanks for the help and support, limestone. I appreciate it... and any other thoughts you might have for me, send 'em my way.

No, I guess I'm intelligent. Book-smart, anyway. But I guess I can be pretty naive when it comes to life outside of school. My dad is a lot smarter than me, too, and I'm always trying to measure up to his standards. Anyway, I guess it doesn't really matter to me whether I'm smart or not. It just suc...