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*language* *su* feel free to comment! - every day i put on an act,or a face and i pretend to be morgan bellamy and this is how i am able to do things. the real me hides and watches - d scares me cause he somehow makes me be the person i am without morgan but he stil likes me - d seems to love me no ...

- finding a really strange pair of sunglasses in a charity shop
- matt bellamy (my husband, see user name)
- wating till there is no one in the house, then putting on angry music really loud

:star: unexpected txt/phonecall/other contace from someone you havent heard from in a while :star: having your neck kissed :star: popping bubble wrap :star: seeing a song you love on a music channel (even if you have the album) :star: meaningful hugs (there is a difference - there are hugs, that you...

j: HATE TO SAY I TOLD YOU SO ALRIGHT
I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY GIVING ME HAPPINESS AND MAKING ME FEEL SECURE AND LOVED AND THEN JUST RIPPING IT AWAY AGAIN

- my bf -- oops not anymore, in that case betta make it a toothbrush -laptop inc internet acces, all music, msn etc -johnny depp (sice bf=toothbrush) -my camera and several hundred rolls of film.. and possibly a fully functioning, collapsable, environmentaly friendly portable dark room... -alcohol. ...

Brokenwings11 wrote:they would lock me up if they found out like they did him

you mentioned your brother.. what happend with him, if you dont mind me asking? did/does he sh too?

m: please whateva you dont dont like me, stay away from me, i turn people against me, like joe, he loved me but im so fucking screwed up it was too werid and i turned him against me its all my fault. i dont deserve to be happy, im such a worthless shit that i dont deserve it, and if there is even th...

i really reccommend mp3/personal cd player/ipod/mini disc/whateva you can get. as long as the music u actualy listen to is not triggery (and some of it can be) i have found its a good way to cope. good luck and take care xx

the thing about the evening is that from when i arrive home from college at 5 to when everyone else in the house goes to sleep at 10, i get more and more depressed and sink further and further down into it. between 8 and 10 is when most of the bad stuff happens. but by about 10.30 its not so bad, th...

*su* *poss trigger* the thing is, more than anything i just want to tell someone about everything, but i cant take the thought that i am hurting them, or overwhelming them. i think, why add to their misery? recently,in the past month or so things have got a lot worse, particuarly in the last week i ...

i do want to be with you, and i know i said no regrets but i didnt mean it i was just trying to protect myself but now i know that you want to be with me and wont hurt with me, we can work it out it can work if we want it to we can do anything just because things happend in the past doesnt mean that...

dont give up giving up, is the best thing i can think of. you read about the two year people and i know you think it seems impossible, because i think that myself, a week also seems like such a long time to me but the thing is its a start. try to take one day at a time. and think about this: even th...

i started a shorthand (teeline) course when i came to my new college and have discoverd that it is a rather good distraction! when im feeling down/whatever, i just pull out the shorthand and figure out some outlines, or even translate worksheets from other courses. it doesnt work all the time, and i...

nikki-girl wrote:Hold on because you are worthy..

started crying when read this bit

jim: im going to stop the mind games and give you a break cos i know how much you hate it and i know that its messing you up josh: im going to get help for my problems so you dont have to worry anymore my parents: we realise that you are old enough now to make your own choices and are going to let y...